Art and Poetry by Dewan Evans

Spoken Word
By Dewan Evans

you couldn’t imagine
being sentenced for many years
over two decades away from peers
no hugs, no kisses
just tattoo tears
you couldn’t imagine
being a innocent man for twenty years
voice mute for help
you lose faith in God and self
you couldn’t imagine
being set up for death
I couldn’t imagine I would survive
to be here on ten toes feeling blessed
you couldn’t imagine
when my mother died
to hear your grand ma died
having to disguise tears in your eyes
you couldn’t imagine
your seeds manipulated believing lies
I was on the edge
seconds from suicide
only to close my eyes
to wake with air in my lungs
guessed God wasn’t ready for me to die
you couldn’t imagine
pain afflicted cause the color of my skin
the world is ugly its hard to grin
you couldn’t imagine
being the underdog everyday trying to win
never screamed for sympathy
just played the cards I was given
you couldn’t imagine…
“” being a innocent soul locked behind steel bars for life
“””many days air is hard to breath””……(emotions)

Love Strings
By Dewan Evans
love contained in my heart strings so deep
you captured my love
my heart no longer a castaway
got me believing in love
my heart leaped your way
blessings, we’re alined for better days
can’t wait to hold you
be your sun on cloudy days
life ain’t fair ,I agree with you there
now that our hearts are here
we should hold no fear
in order to grow
we have to nurture each other souls
make our reality stand bold
fighting for our destiny to unfold
I thought never again no
till my heart made it clear
it loved you beyond any fear…..
Love Strings….
(True love grows and blossoms to protect each other .two hearts…)

Life
By Dewan Evans

i could barely breath, but I was still conscious
eyelids filled with darkness
no voice to respond
my soul felt drowned
couldn’t wake with a alarm
felt the cards i was dealt were wrong
so I felt misfortune
depression settled in
life,
I was close to forfeiting
the man in the mirror, I couldn’t see him
felt like the world didn’t need him!
contemplating different ways to take my life
just when I surrendered on life
a blessing came on site
that gave me hope to fight
reminded me
i been a dreamchaser since I had sight
against all odds blessed with life
never give! keep the fight!!!
P:S EVERYDAY YOU WAKE YOU HAVE A CHANCE TO MAKE THINGS BETTER , TO ENJOY THE PERKS OF THE WORLD LOVED ONES AND BUILD YOUR LEGACY! EVEN THROUGH THE STRUGGLE YOUR LEGACY SHOULD READ THAT YOU FOUGHT FOR BETTER TILL YOUR END!!!DON’T COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS BE APPRECIATIVE OF THEM!

ON THE EDGE .PRESSURE BUST A PIPE! PRISON JOURNAL..
By Dewan Evans

sitting inside a cold cell early in the am I woken….I thought it was a dream but once my feet hit the cold cell floor that initial thought flew right out of mind and the reminder of reality kicked in that I was in prison…. Locked in pelican bay one of the most violent prisons in California at the time no lie I felt like I might die inside this belly of the beast ! to be honest I’ve always been scarred of death on any measure! but dieing in prison a innocent man haunted me day in day out! a lot of people hear that and think its cleeshay or one on lock just not accepting responsibility but fact is there is a lot of innocent ones confined also many railroaded by the system on a lot of different alleged crimes… as the morning began there was not yet light…
I made me a cup of coffee in my hot pot my daily routine and with no noise due to it being so early in the morning I sipped my coffee and meditated but there is never a day I don’t think of being confined for another’s rage or for a system exaggerating things and also using pawns to put the blame on me as some sit free and should be where I am that eats at me every day! not to have animosity toward those who played a part to put me here is something extremely hard to not to wish…being judged because the perception that I am a guilty man to the world to family and kids is something i can’t never get used to 22 years in…I don’t scream innocence just because its for only one reason cause I am and God knows I wish the world did to! if you were in my shoes you would think just like me or give entirely on life! its not fair too not have a voice not to have defense and to sit inside a cage for over two decades especially with facts of pure innocence and being railroaded…this morning I remember so vividly i felt so overwhelmed as I sipped my coffee I wanted to end my life the pressure was real and I was at my breaking point! to be something that your not to know your life is this cold cell day in day out for over a decade at this time was just to overwhelming! I had no strength just contemplating the end of my life as I began to ponder the ways that I could .I felt like death was the way for escape from this pain being trapped in not able to be a father and away from family and feeling like God didn’t love me took me down.
there were razor blades broke apart local in the cell that I had saved up that officers didn’t get back and I began to think of swallowing them in hopes that would take me out! before I could even move how ironic it was to get a letter from my grand mother slid under my cell door. it was reroute mail and passed to me late because of that and that is one thing that had put a stop to the thoughts I was struggling with. as I open the letter on my bunk it read son never give God will find you a way home on his time be patient! I felt I’ve been patient enough but my grandmother telling me it felt different in my mind,still struggling though with the thoughts of ending my life I began to think of my grandmother words and my family and kids if you go today this will be my legacy and my innocence will probably never be exposed and to leave my family like this isn’t the way… I laid on the cold cell floor with no shirt on just sweats and socks and I clinched my grandmothers letter and as I laid there I seem paralyzed and couldn’t make any moves those thoughts of ending my life were still there I had mixed emotions but fact I was somehow paralyzed I laid till my eyes closed and my cell door opening hours later …since that day it is still a struggle to be contained here innocent and those that played a part to put me here are in situations that never wished they would be in! but that doesn’t make me happy then you have those still floating through life with a smile and manipulating those that will believe them ..I’ve grown stronger but still fight everyday to stay afloat mentally , not a easy thing ! but I don’t want my legacy to be me giving up! leaving this earth without trying to expose my innocence and how i was railroaded by the system and lies!God has gave me life, strength and hope to get through these 22 years and I’m still fighting today ! now with help to expose the truth! ….

I Still Pray….
By Dewan Evans (INNOCENT 1)

its crazy what some will do for fame
to keep it real though
fortune could help you in these unjustly days
vaccines mandate
but you can catch the virus anyway
I think its a conspiracy
justice system don’t play fair
let one of their own make a mistake
bet they see clear
while the misfortune suffer for years
without facts clear
judged by bias peers
like the perception is real
just cause you reside behind steel
betrayal scared me I never healed
a body covered with tattoo tears
I had to learn to show no fear
homeless youngin in a wild atmosphere
no lie I wanted to live like fresh prince of bel air
never did I see the cards was fair
if you walked in my shoes
you would see the truth no dares
feel the pain
I wasn’t perfect
times I went against the grain
every time I prayed it was sincere trying to change
no excuses! my decisions was the blame
but here I sit innocent in a cage
I STILL PRAY!!!
( SOMETIMES IN LIFE WE HAVE NO CHOICES AND OTHERS MAKE DECISIONS FOR U..I RESIDE IN THE BELLY OF THE BEAST FOR THAT REASON! BUT I AM NOT PERFECT!!!

If I Could See Down the Long Road
By Dewan Evans

for sure i would of detoured
from tragedy and betrayal
days i was frail in a shell like a snail
who would of dreamed decades in a prison cell
no I wasn’t perfect
neither is life we all have failed
what I look like not screaming innocent out my cell
those know who lied
testified with fake cries
public defender couldn’t look me in the eyes
our conscious we can never run from
to many fakes with disguise’s
time only makes us wiser
if we paying attention
this long road I’ve been on
is far away from home
no love ,this system heartless and cold
like the days as a youngin
in the streets I used to roam
i was without a home
till my aunt offered shelter
through my eyes the world was heltah skelta
if I could rewind
I wonder if these present days would be better
wishing I could see down that long road
maybe it would change the hands of times ……

All My Life
By Dewan Evans

i’ve been asking why the tribulations why did i have to perservere hide my tears in a world that will take you down if it smells fear all my life…. i’ve been running up hill truth is i had my moment ,it was surreal wished for it ,for many years the saying is be cautious what you wish for one day it will become real i lost myself in the moment like a bottle with no seal wishing i could rewind the days how can i strive for better days when i lack the faith for some its easy to say to keep the faith imagine locked in a prison cell senteced for life till you passed away for assumpptions, exaggrated case when those could have still free to this day the old me would wish their worst day but i’m a diffrent man today all my life….. i’ve been fighting to keep the faith trying to numb the pain everyday i’m blessed to see the sun rise wishing for a love that is not camouflaged,minus the flaws all my life…. seems right for it to be hard i’m bravehearted with eternal scars with questions for God only cause i’m human all my life…..

If I had One Chance
By Dewan Evans

if I had one chance to make you smile
make you feel invincible
to take you pass ecstasy
I would do it a million times
cherish your worth ,your shine
from day one you had me feeling your vibe
a billion people
our presence aligned
I know it seems simple
but it could be divine
strength and love
happiness forever times
the day I saw your eyes
had me wishing you was mine
truth is angels fly
dreams come true if you keep them alive
for whatever its worth
let’s keep our presence aligned
in hopes we meet before the end of time …….

Record Strait!!!
By Dewan Evans

oh these haters got a lot to say
they see these prison bars
they see what’s reported in black and white
feel like I’m guilty for life
they want me to suffer
wishing death upon me
that’s crazy!
cause they don’t know the truth
don’t know my story
but truly only God can judge me!
over two decades in over lies and different stories
from the same ones that could of did the dirty
represented by a public attorney
who cared less bout my innocence
so you hater why don’t you get the facts
then run your mouth bout that!
you wish death but God had a different plan
twenty three years confined
but here I still stand
the truth will be exposed
its clear as day
I guess you don’t know
how this scandalous justice system go
take years of your life
then apologies and let you go
so you hater with opinion
I’m not mad at ya!
one day we will all face our rapture…
see the thing is I’m a innocent man on all cylinders and this whole thing me here was exaggerated to the extreme!! and for your info I’m no criminal! ..those that lied they felt the pressure on their selves that they could be where I am today for over two decades so that’s there reasons to lie but if it was anything to happen they could of been suspect to!….i’m not caged for guilt more less assumption and lies and a public defender that gave one f**** about my innocence… you can assume hater who you think I am and wish the worst for me but God got that part! and I do appreciate your passion though but never assume to many lives have been destroyed over assumptions….and its funny hater you boast what you think but not facts! like the children teen book I wrote on Amazon or the many poems and self help to those struggling souls of all ages …nor did you try to find facts where I’m innocent or only boasting fake assumptions my way ….God got you and hear you tho!

George Floyd…no justice!

Spoken Word by Dewan.Evans

no justice with facts abundance
you can’t tell me nothing!
skin color plus authority of the law
wins again
after killing a innocent soul with intent
if it was a brother in those shoes
even with no evidence
there his life go
forever behind the bricks to die slow
we all seen the video, a knee to the juggler
a winless soul screaming for his mother
hoping they let him go
let him breathe
instead momma was his last scream
now he rest in peace
but not in the streets
souls of love embraced on march
22 years was gave
just cause the power of position
chauvin had a mask on
but you could see him grinning
had the nerve to speak after sentence
like I didn’t mean for it to come to this
he serves half his time with evidence
what about thousands on lock ,
with fraudulent evidence
skin color played apart
plus dollas and cents
the less fortunate locked up in a pit
basis assumptions and lies
reason I’m still doing time
they gave 27 mill to the floyds
like here is a precious gift
no money is worth a life for a gift
wrong is wrong ,right is right
there was no justice today
with all the truth to light
a disrespectful blow to a precious life ….George Floyd….
no justice!!!!

its hard to love
By Dewan.Evans

with a heart that has been wounded
never healed
from betrayal when It thought love was real
“its hard to love”
when your heart has been left deserted
emotions ,homeless
“its hard to love”
when your heart feels love is just a disguise
“its hard to love”
when betrayal played you to many times
my heart was big on love
now small as a dime
“its hard to love”
when you stop dreaming
stop believing
it’s hard to love……..

Spoken Word Poetry
By Dewan Evans

depression got me parallelized
I write between these lines
letting my soul cry
trapped in this cage wishing I could fly
to see my granny in the sky
I still wonder why we die?
why war never dies?
i been up against it
since the beginning of time
its the worst days
I found strength to stay alive
I’m still wondering why?
is it GODS plan?
or just a miracle I’m alive?
truth always comes in time
just like the sun
eventually it will rise
these bars make innocence a disguise
take racism out yo eyes!
depression got me parallelized…..

TRAPPED SOUL
Spoken Word by Dewan Evans

trapped in a 8 by 9
barely can see the sky
convicted unjustified
a lonely soul as days unfold
no embrace with love
just these bars that cold
I prayed to God
exposing I’m a innocent soul
decades have flown
so this dark cell is called home
haunted by pass souls
some cursed from the go
others just lost in the moment
its been days, I felt free for a moment
like a angel took me by her wings
flew me to where I don’t know?
my lungs felt a different air
my soul felt like it could fly, through mid air
a peaceful moment, from a cell full of fears
from trapped souls for many years
unfortunately I’m still here…..

world change
By Dewan Evans

our future growing with no racism in their vains
no police raids where a innocent person is slaid
no unjust railroaded in a cage
no youth that screams for help goes unsaved
justice is scandalous authorities got to pay
no secrets to jeopardize our health in future days
the world in need of world change
no racism ways ,equal rights,
only way for world change

 

 

Survivor

Spoken Word Poetry.

By Dewan Evans

 

I’m a survivalist, survived the Earth’s abyss

Stronger than two fists, blessed with a gift

Thank God, even though I’m not rich

It’s a task to stay fit

Mentally, physically

Life took a toll on me

So, no, it’s not for free

I’ve been close to the edge

Crying like a baby, with no comfort

Starvin’ to get fed

Times, I wondered: “Am I better off dead?”

Here I stand alive

Witness the struggle and pain in my eyes

Thought I was safe after baptize

Still had to fight to stay alive

Dodge temptation, stay strong, through tribulation

Been a believer, with no hesitation

But many days, many nights, asking

“God, why life so strife?”

Even if you right, you get done outta spite!

I learned to fight

A survivor!

 

 

 

Who Am I

Spoken Word Poetry.

By Dewan Evans

 

I’m a competitor, no one can do better

It’s my time to shine

Adapt to any weather

I know haters, wishin’ for my downfall

That keeps me motivated

Prayer is my parachute, God is my bulletproof

My heart bleeds 100-proof

Soldier mentality, father instincts

Lookin’ out for my family

Fake friends need a Grammy

Life is not a race, you can pass me

Stresses of the world

Cause paranoia and insanity

Money and bad decisions

May make you a casualty

Stay focused, stay humble

Even my you tumble

Get up, dust it off

Stay cautious, like you blindfolded

Let this be deeply noted

Who I am as a person, is not my position

You haters keep wishin’

– Who I Am –

 

 

 

Why Judge Me?

Spoken Word Poetry.

By Dewan Evans

 

Nobody on Earth is perfect

You have no right to judge me

Only God does above me

You don’t know enough of me

To label me super ugly

Holdin’ a grudge, just because

Calling me guilty, with no proof to light

Check your soul, read a little of “the word”

See who gave forgiveness to all souls

Why judge me? Innocent or guilty, just say

I copped a plea

Still you have no right judging me

Leave that to G.O.D

I’m not living for free

Cherish friends and love ones around me

Far from perfect

But not guilty on a lot of things

For what it’s worth

Judgin’ me as a cursed kid

How you better? We both bleed under skin

Innocent, not guilty, since you judging me

– Why Judge Me? –

 

 

P.S. Don’t judge one just ‘cause you can, or because of their position in life and situation. You can be wrong assuming. Don’t judge a book, or a human being, by their cover, or without true facts about who that human being is. We all have a story!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

My Sunshine

By Dewan Evans

Spoken Word Poetry

T.S.D.E. Ink 5

 

You came into my life

Brought me sunshine

When I rise

I think of you “my sunshine”

My body craves for it

My heart loves it

“My Sunshine”

I love to look in your eyes

You hypnotize

“My Sunshine”

Makes my days better

When I was under the weather

“My Sunshine”

Got me feeling better

I want my sunshine forever

“My Sunshine”

 

 

You

By Dewan Evans

Spoken Word Poetry

 

You had my trust

You had my heart caught up

You had a diamond, in the ruff

You had my true love and care

You were my one and only

You made my heart face its fears

Then you made it fear all over again

Thought it was me and you the end

Now my new journey begins

My heart still suffocated

Will it ever breathe again?

You made my temperature rise

Only to leave me cold in the end.

“You”

 

(From New Legacy 5)

 

I´m only Human (The Struggle)

By Dewan Evans

Spoken Word Poetry

 

I sit behind these steel gates

With a permanent mad face

Surrounded with lost ones with no hope

20 years no escape

20 years of built up anger

Caged with strangers

Plotting revenge on fake friends

Same ones that lied to win!

Placing an innocent man

In the belly of the beast, me!

Decades in, I barely sleep

Never peace, nightmare on Elm street

I keepa fake smile, laugh just because

If I was see through, recognize God´s love

I still fight the nudge

To do things just because, remind myself of God´s love

Pray my innocence and freedom

Will one day become

If my prayer is never granted

“True” it will be hard to understand it!

I can only take it as God planned it!

Hoping He knows, just ´cause I question

Never was I blind of His blessings,

I´m only human

That´s been fighting to survive, since adolescence

“I´m only human”.

 

 

(From New Legacy 5)

Just Yesterday

By Dewan Evans

Spoken Word Poetry

 

I thought I felt an angel heaven sent

Thought I could rewind time

Turn all this pain to joy and sunshine

“Just yesterday”

I prayed for a rainy day

“Just yesterday”

A sprinkle landed on my face

Like a tear

Like it felt my agony, my pain

My struggles to this day

¨Just yesterday”

I thought I couldn´t stand

I was blessed with strength of many man

Tho it´s been many bad days

My faith still stands today

Reminiscing on the good times.

“Just Yesterday”

 

 

(From New Legacy 5)

Today

By Dewan Evans

Spoken Word Poetry

 

Hold on to what I have

That´s my family, my sanity and faith

Moms resting in peace today

Pops living deceased today

With no thoughts of me today

I´m fighting these days

I miss my kids these days

Wish they knew truth today

How I was lied on, betrayed

By those still scandalous today

Twisted facts to put me away

I hope the sun shine today

So I can feel a sun ray

I wish for wings today

So I can fly away, escaping the pain today

Knowing it’s a better place

Than the cold world we live in today

It takes a nation for change

Every day we rise

We can fight for better days

When you smile today

Remember, it´s a blessing to wake

No hypocrite, still not perfect today

If I go today, I pray I walk through Heaven gates

“Today”

 

 

(From New Legacy 5)

One Day

By Dewan Evans

Spoken Word Poetry

 

Don´t leave me on the bridge

My balance may give

Who say? We can´t love, happily ever after

They don´t dream, don´t understand

What our hearts are after

They judge “Dewan”

But I owe them no answer

“Dewan¨ is no cancer, no monster, never perfect

But a heart full of courage

With good in it!

Changed man, for a better life span

Every day, I ask God was this the plan

Cause behind these bars

Stands an innocent man
Many feel like

Outside these bars many abandon

Not hearing the innocent´s sound

Many feel like

I shouldn´t have a helping hand

I´m blessed by angel hands

Those that don´t judge, just cause they can

Those I appreciate

Even the ones that judge full of hate

That gives me fuel to demonstrate

With blessings, I´m stronger every day

Blessed to fight another day

Will I get free, maybe one day

 

“One Day”

 

 

(From New Legacy 5)

Familiar

By Dewan Evans

 Spoken Word Poetry

 

I got scars from abuse, betrayal and wars

Many times asking God

Is this what you had in store

I was a young-in scorn

Taught faith, but lost it in the storm

Dreamed big, but my reality was th norm

True I had chances to persevere

Chances to shine

Like stars in the atmosphere

I chose a road that wasn´t clear

A few times you could say it was karma

Other times the devil causing problems

I tried hard to solve ´em

In a world that´s Gotham

Filled with love and pain

Rich and poor, the sick, the sane

Racism which triggers anger to my brain

It´s useless cause we all bleed the same

Die and rest in a grave

Heaven or hell

Wherever our choices dwell us

Live and learn

That´s what life tells us

Watch those trying to set you up for failure

 

Sound so familiar.

Be That! Dedicated to my son Simieon Dewan Evans

By Dewan Evans

 Spoken Word Poetry

 

Be that man I couldn´t be

Keep ya guards up

Life can be a bully

Make right choices, so you can go far

Recognize reward from working hard

Don´t let it dictate negative ways

Believe in self and God

“Responsibility” makes you a better man

don´t look near; look far!

Your future is what you make it

Cherish every breath you take

Treat your body like a temple

Recognize what you been through

Be aware of those see through

Baiting you in just to hurt you

Patience is a virtue

Material things can hurt you

Don´t let it turn you

To what many in this world turn to

Be that golden son, that big brother

Cherish time and hugs with your mother

By now, you should´ve discovered

Who you are, where you´re headed

Be that man I dreaded

Don´t make foolish decisions

Be that man that makes a difference

 

Be That! Is dedicated to Simieon Dewan Evans, my son.

I was only blessed to be a part of your life physically for a short time.

It wasn´t my choice not to be there! Your dad would never abandon you or hurt you in any fashion

I wanted to be a true father, but, that opportunity was stripped from me for something I´m innocent of.

I pray our communication one day will be frequent and you give me your time and open ear, not to lie to you, but for truth.

It´s so much more you need to know, despite me not being there these years.

You and your sister Tyelenne and your mom are with me every day in my prayers.

Be that!Son, accomplish everything you put your mind to, stay focused.

I send my love and best wishes.

I miss you.

 

(Your father,Dewan Evans)

 

 

 

New Legacy

By Dewan Evans

 Spoken Word Poetry

 

A soul saved no discrepancies

I wouldn`t be human, if I was perfect

I made it this far

Had to go through happiness and pain

Many times

Went against the grain

Close to blowing my own brains

Curt cobain

Life took its toll onyoung man

That was trying to break the cycle

A younging balling

Wishing to fly like Michael

To the sky, to the heavens

Disappear from earth

Life had a younging stressing

Since I remained

I turned young and restless

Lead to misdirection

Deadly game, like sex with no protection

Grandma told me learn ya lesson

If not they got bars

That will trap you forever

My heart had a personal vendetta

A young one, not knowing no better

A wise one told me, get your soul together

So you can make it

Where happiness is forever

My new legacy begins

Asking God from the heart

Forgive me for all sins

 Ones I thought

The ones I did

Tho I´m trapped in

I pray my innocence and freedom

Will be the end

 

“New Legacy”

Beautiful

By Dewan Evans

(Dedicated to DM)

You are a beautiful creation

Beautiful wife, beautiful mother

A survivor with a beautiful heart

You inspire strength and hope

To mothers and friends

You hold beauty within

That can be seen from far

You’ve healed from scars

You’re a mother on guard

Teaching your kids to go far

You’re beautiful to the world by far

Thank you for being the beautiful person you are

-Beautiful-

 

If I Could

By Dewan Evans

Spoken Word Poetry from E-Book: My Daily Bread
(Go to Amazon.com/ebooks)

 

I would change a lot of things

Take my life out the fast lane

Be stronger with decisions

Analyze my position

Live life like it’s worth living

Keep a settle appetite

Never be shame

Learn from my mistakes the first time around

Make my mother proud, non stressin

Accomplish my goals with aggression

Raise my seeds, my prize possessions

Be a father to the finish

Cherish time and family from the beginning

Work hard so we can live happily

Thank God everyday

For keeping me away from tragedy

If I could

I would try to live life perfect

But no human on earth is

 

If I could!

 

Picture This

By Dewan Evans

Spoken Word Poetry from E-Book: My Daily Bread
(Go to Amazon.com/ebooks)

 

Innocent of the crime

Convicted, unjustified

Represented by a lawyer not classified

Day by day it gets harder to cope

Laugh and joke is a part of the masquerade

Inside I’m trying hard to stay sane

My heart feels the pain

Everyday ends the same

No matter how I change

I pray to get out one day

Truly believe God will make a way

Till then, I’ll pray, build strength each day

Not seeing my family and kids

For 14 years, bring me mo than tears

I’ve been close to taking my life

If it wasn’t for fear, I wouldn’t be here

 

 

Picture this!

 

Try To Save Them

By Dewan Evans

 

I see her from far

I see her close range

I see her in my way

Profiling all day

She got a counterfeit heart

A disguise to get you mesmerized

A physique to make temptations rise

A magnet to a man’s eyes

Food for a foolish man’s appetite

Soon as he apple bite

Killing his soul, risking his life

Only thing she care about is the price

Then she on to the next hype

She probably never felt love in her life

Or need money for eviction

Or money for addiction

Could be doing it to pay tuition

Or just to get attention

Maybe she learned it from her momma

It’s a crazy world we live in

We need to pray for these women

Extend a hand to these women

Cause it could be our sister

Our family, our children

Our mothers needing healing

Try To Save them!

 

Heartless World

By Dewan Evans

 

That kid tummy starving

Than man is yawning, no roof over his head

That human is dying

Can’t afford healthcare

That girl 14, had a baby on the stairs

Left the baby right there

Not cause she was heartless

Cause she was scared

That man got 25 to life

Cause his lawyer didn’t’ care

That woman had 12 drinks

Don’t remember her sexual affairs

Another woman died

Thinking domestic violence was love

Plenty soldiers relying

But all they get is a moment of silence

In this heartless world

Heartless World

 

 

 

2 Hearts
By Dewan Evans
Spoken Word Poetry from E-Book: My Daily Bread
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You get me going, heart pumping
Mind racin’, anticipating feeling your touch
I’m not faking, I tried to shake it
Deepens the temptation
Can’t be infatuation or my imagination
You’re a beautiful creation
One in a million presentation
You in my life, you will always be appreciated
Strive hard, to always keep us affiliated
Let’s make it through the rainy days
Embrace under sun rays, better days
Skies the limit, life got many pivots
Me and you together, we grip it!
Two of the same hearts on a mission
-2 Hearts – 


I Wish
By Dewan Evans

Spoken Word Poetry from E-Book: My Daily Bread

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I wish it wasn’t no bad days
I wish war wasn’t present
I wish death wasn’t destiny
I wish some facts wasn’t irrelevant
My wish is only a prayer
That’s only evident
I will keep wishing, till I’m heaven sent
Some tragedies don’t make sense
I wish God would vent
So I could really understand why it’s meant
Time is essence
I wish I could rewind, to better my present
I wonder if my wishes came true
Would life be better spent
Will my homeless feelings be sheltered
Will my soul be heaven sent?
I wish!


Desire
By Dewan Evans

You gave me strength to rise
A reason to believe
Keep hope and a dream
You’re someone I admire
I know
Situations make it harder
I hope we grow stronger
My heart
Can’t fight it no longer
It ponders and dreams
Only to wake to reality
Days you seem close to me
Like we have a chance to be
Is my mind playing tricks on me?
I would give you my air to breathe
No questions, my heart confesses
The old me
Would of hid these possessions
Feelings resurrected
Making you a desire that never left me

– My Desire – 

 

Words of Truth
By Dewan Evans

(verse one)
You haven’t walked in my shoes
You really don’t have a clue
Some say I question God
Did wrong!
And it’s only right
I sit behind bars
Despite I’ve been blessed for 20 years
Walking prison yards
Covered with tattoo tears
God and death my only fear
Dreamed to go far
Now my only dream is freedom from these bars
Reuniting with family
Means more, than any salary
Haters won’t understand me
They want me to stay causality
They deaf of my innocence
Blind of my love
No acting, no Grammy
Missing my granny
Solid part of the family
You’ve felt pain you understand me

(verse two)
The sun hasn’t always shined
In a life like mine
It was special days
Like witnessing my daughter’s first cries
Never forgot the bad days
Like my son in a hospital bed
Wishing I could trade my life for his
Take his pain
Know if it was purposely did
By those who fibbed!
I’m far from perfect
So I ask for forgiveness
Not for wealth or negative gain
Mainly cause my heart sane
Love in its veins
My conscious speaks every day
About the dirt I did!
How I got to get right
If my soul wants to live
I hope God forgives
Comprise, understand things I did!
From a youngin’ to a grown man
-Words of truth-

 

Rewind

Lost Heart 
By Dewan Evans

How can I breathe
When my air was taken
My heart was mistaken
Now it’s paying, pain, suffering
Never will I trust again
Tho it’s attached to me, like my best friend
It’s crazy how your heart spins
We only have one heart to give
I gave mine and got DID!
I guess it’s a lesson at the end
That’s why we live
I’m still fighting to love again
If it’s in the cards
I may find true love and happiness
Right now my heart is PLADDED
Filled with no trust and saddened
A lost heart that’s drastic measure
Lost heart that’s trying to find the sun
In this dark era

Lost Heart.

Fortunate
By Dewan Evans

Fortunate to be breathing
Fortunate to be strong, fighting these demons
I’m living for a reason
Fortunate to have two beautiful kids succeeding
Strength to keep breathing
Even though my prayers seem like they not being greeted
Fortunate for a reason
Despite struggling every season
Fortunate to have loved ones
It’s appreciated from my soul & heart
Fortunate to shine when it’s dark
Fortunate to be forgiven
Not to be imprisoned in my own mind
Fortunate to see my blindside
Blessed from the other side
Fortunate is a blessing, is what I recognize!
Fortunate!

Dear Momma
By Dewan Evans

I know you not here
Since that year, your son been stressed, for real
I know we was distance at times
You had your own demons to fight
True I felt abandoned
To this day, still don’t understand it
How can Momma leave her son?
Flesh and blood on the run
As I grew older, still confused
Holdin’ anger, seeing you with strangers
Your appearance lookin’ stranger
You kinda turned into a stranger
But my heart still held love, like remainders
Prayed for the day we would reunite
That day never happen
The day you died, got the news
It was tragic, now that you gone
I send questions and love up above
I hope you answer your son
Dear Momma!

Life
By Dewan Evans

People going to war
Coming back home disfigured
Still wearing U.S. memorabilia
Some starvin’, homeless in the street
You put ya life on the line, claimin’ U.S. pride
When it’s all said and done, you not respected
I guess being a hero
You get treated like a zero
Government wishin’, they could keep this on the low
How low can you go, sabotaging your own?
Life is precious even if it’s not your own.
I continue to dream on
Knowing God is sitting on the throne
Sees what’s going on
I pray for better days
Hope the weak get stronger
The innocent dodge strays
Life has a fast lane
So pray to stay blessed till your last day.
Life!

Letter 2 God
By Dewan Evans

You have kept me alive 38 years
A lot of those years
Life wasn’t easy. Even on them bad days
I kept a smile, a young child
Learning to swim in the pool of life
No Father figure, Mamma’s only child
She was barely around
Grandma found me in the Lost and Found
Had to man up, even though I was a young buck
These questions have been built up
Since you haven’t answered through prayer
I send this letter
Hopin’ it gets through heaven’s gates
I’m still learning from my mistakes
Hope to be a better man on Judgement Day
Dwelling behind heaven’s gates
So we can really conversate
I hold anger today
For being convicted
In these false courts today
Wondering why
You dealt me these cards to play.