My Love Letter to the Streets
By Gerardo Esquivel
My infatuation goes far beyond emotion
I gave you my heart, my mind, without question my devotion.
I’m head over heels; I still feel the butterflies dancing in my stomach
But how is it, that the love of my life can cause my self destruction.
Emotionally, you tore me apart, you’re the reason my hearts cold
Internally, you filled my emptiness, you’re the reason my heart glows.
Whatever I desired, you delivered on a silver platter
But the one question I ask is, why my feelings never mattered?
The day I lost French, it hurt me in the worst way
I began to take drugs should’ve never took in the first place.
The day I lost my uncle, we had a family emergency
I cursed God & the Heavens, why didn’t you let him survive that surgery?
The day I lost Eddie; they buried my heart with him
I felt like a Madman plotting on my next victim.
The day I lost Fatzo, I thought why you and not me?
I would’ve switched places so you can raise your kids and live happily.
Through thick and thin, my love for you never failed to grow
But before I dig any deeper, I think it’s time I let you go.
How is it, that the love of my life can be the root of my pain
A world full of sorrow and not once did it ever feel strange.
Poem
By Gerardo Esquivel
As I inhale the aroma
There’s a difference in the air I’m breathing
Prosperity fills my lungs
It’s sobriety, it’s growth, it’s spiritual healing
My mind is no longer shackled
Styrofoam cups no longer define me
With each step, I accumulate progression
I look in my rearview and see addiction behind me
Who would’ve known? My rock bottom would elevate
My mind, my spirit, my health
I had the whole world in my hands
I had to lose it all just to find myself
As I exhale
I can’t seem to help it
I notice my breath is calm
The ice on my heart has melted
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