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Poetry by Anthony Gay

To: America
From: Anthony Gay B26651
P.O. Box 99
Pontiac, IL 61764
Re: What it means to be a prisoner in America

Dear America:

What does it mean to me a prisoner in America? It is equivalent to being trapped in a doghouse with little movement to move. It means that life is deep, complex, and complicated Life is not easy, and staying alive is just the initial challenge. Living with the consequences of our actions is a lifelong challenge. There is no refuge in prison. No happiness. No crisp, clear mornings or evenings, no brisk winds. No low roaming clouds, or gracious rains. No sugar maples or apple trees drooping with fruit. Each day is filled with anger and hate. Every time we get angry it cuts into the fabric of good will, care and appreciation that are vital to our relationships. Each day we hate we exclude goodness. We search for rehabilitation but can’t find it. There is no agenda for rehabilitation. I thought maybe the agenda was to warehouse us, that’s the common cliché I always hear.  But recently I looked in the Black Law Dictionary. This classic dictionary defines warehouse as a “building to store goods and other items”. There are no “goods” in prison. Therefore our condition is worse than a warehouse. American has forgotten about us. How could America forget about its own people? Does a fire forget to smoke? Does a jewelry store forget it has jewelry? No! Yet, America forgets us. America shows us her back and hides her face. 
Like cages full of birds, America is full of deceit. She has become rich and powerful, and has grown fat and sleek. She blushes, not with sadness, but with madness.  Not with shame, but with arrogance. Psychologically, prison negatively affects all prisoners, but at different rates. To me, being in prison is the equivalent to having a major surgery without anesthesia. There are no educational opportunities to advance or develop. It is like the place is designed to psychologically kill you. How could America be so cruel to its own people? I can understand that there needs to be order in society, and crime causes chaos. So there is a need for prisoners. But is there a need to psychologically kill prisoners? Are we terrorists? Am I a terrorist? No! So why is my treatment equivalent to an alternative set of procedures. Will the government consciously avoid the treatment of prisoners? Has the government forgotten that Justice White stated, “There is no curtain drawn between the constitution and the prisons of this country?”. Have the federal courts forgotten that when a prison regulation or practice offends a fundamental constitutional guarantee, federal courts are supposed to discharge their duty to protect constitutional rights? Or was Justice Powell just blowing hot air? I don’t think Justice Powell was blowing hot air. Why? Because the government invented the 1996 Prison Litigation Reform Act. This Act circumvents what Justices White and Powell stated. The Prison Litigation Reform Act is the modern day “hands off” doctrine. What was the theory of the hands-off doctrine? The management and control of prisons were generally viewed as executive and legislative functions. In essence, the courts refused to intervene. I remember reading in a court opinion that the term “cruel and unusual punishment” is relative rather than absolute. The conditions in which prisoners are housed, like the poverty line, is a function of a society’s standard of living. As that standard rises, the standard of minimum decency of prison conditions, like the poverty line, should rise too. What do we call minimum decency? I’m locked in a cell twenty-four hours a day. Is that minimum decency? I treated at best, like a child, at worst, like an animal. Lawsuits no longer serve a useful function. Ninety-nine percent of inmates’ lawsuits are deemed frivolous. Only some are knowingly filed frivolous, but what about the ones are not knowingly filed frivolous? The ones that are a result of being illiterate, uneducated, or unenlightened or suffering from series of mental illnesses? What about the ones that are circumvented? Why are the courts reluctant to appoint a prisoner a lawyer in a civil rights complaint? Because the courts know that it will level the playing field. This is what it means to be a prisoner in America. To be shoved aside like human debris. 
— Anthony Gay B62251
    P.O. Box 99
    Pontiac, IL 61264
To: Teens of America
From: Anthony Gay B26651
P.O. Box 99
Pontiac, IL 61764
Re: Future of America
Dear Teens of America:
I know it’s not easy being a teen in America. “How do I know?” I used to be a teen myself.  I experienced the heartache and pain of growing up, of feeling like a cloud with no rain, a garden with no water, an autumn tree with no fruits, of being surrounded by grumbling and fault finding adults who follow their own desires and boast about themselves and flatter others for their own advantage. I didn’t like it, but it comes with the package of life. It comes with experience. Experience is a wise teacher, but she’s also an expensive teacher.  My cost? Prison. 
I don’t want to see you come to prison. You don’t deserve to come to prison. You deserve to be one of the great people of America. You are the face of tomorrow. You are the face of America. You are the future of America. So resolve to uphold righteousness by deed and by word. Resolve to be honest and brave, to serve high ideals, yes use practical methods. Learn not to run from difficulties but to overcome them. I know your work is hard, but I don’t have pity for you. I admire you. Mix your goodness, grace, and intelligence like gumbo. Its been noted: crafty people condemn studies, simple people admire them, and wise people use them. Read and study not to contradict or believe and take for granted or to find talk, but to weight and consider. Some books are to be tasted, others to be swallowed, and some few to be chewed and digested. Some books are to be read in part, others to be read but not curiously, and some few to be read wholly, and with diligence and attention. Appreciate education, and seek knowledge, but don’t allow it to make you proud and arrogant. Don’t listen when people say you’re stupid, spoiled, peevish, whine a lot, or get mad at everybody. Don’t listen when people say you’re stupid-stupid is a stupid word. Don’t be afraid to address adults as “sir” or “ma’am”, its respectful. Don’t be afraid to tell your parents that you need them to identify with your feelings and be loyal to you; in return, you be loyal to your parents, don’t abandon your family and become a voluntary orphan. You have the qualities to be successful, your agenda should be successful, and when somebody embraces your agenda, you should welcome them into your tent. Don’t welcome bad company into your tent, because bad company corrupts good habits. Instead of inviting bad company into your tent, be more interested in understanding bad company than joining it. Be decent in thought, clear in mind, and clean in action. Be truthful; a lie implies fear, shallow pride and bad character. Your views are not immature or extremely unusual, nor do you have distinguishing, abnormal characteristics. Make “looking on the bright side” a habit. Mingle with positive people as much as possible. Keep your eyes on the stars but your feet on the ground.
Remember, you are the future of America.
— Anthony Gay B62251
    P.O. Box 99
    Pontiac, IL 61264
Anthony Gay B62251
Pontiac Correctional Center
P.O.Box 99
Pontiac, IL 61264
Anthony is a prisoner in Pontiac Correctional Facility’s no grace sink hole, and is due to be released this summer after spending over 20 years in long term punitive segregation and/or solitary confinement.  He intends, upon his release, to publish three books about his life in prison.  Anthony will raise awareness about the negative effects of solitary confinement.

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