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Billy Tracy 999607
Polunsky Unit
3872 FM 350 South
Livingston, TX 77351
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Billy Joel Tracy was born in Janesville, Wisconsin in 1977 and almost immediately moved with his family to Texas. He grew up in the Dallas/Fort Worth area – minus three years in Colorado in the mid-80s.
He enjoys reading about ancient European history, science, psychology, neurology, politics, fantasy, action adventure and mysteries. He enjoys doing arts and crafts, exercising, writing, participating in activism and learning about other cultures.
He has been on Death Row in Texas since November 2017 at the Polunsky Unit. And no, his parents were not Billy Joel fans. He is thankful he wasn’t named after his parent’s favorite band, Pink Floyd.
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Unknown
August 16, 2020 at 9:43 pmTruly sorry for the Davison family. Along with all the other victims of terrible crimes. That being said I find this writing very insightful. It shows even the worst of the worst are still people. That their one action or series of actions do not define them. Keep up the writing!! I think it's very enlightening for the "row" members families. They are not to blame and they morn the loss of their family also. Be good all and may God bless you ….each of you
Ryzzia
January 5, 2020 at 9:27 pm@ "C",
Hi,
I found this from the Disciplinary Rules and Procedures Handbook DOC Texas uses.
10.2 Possession of a certain amount of contraband (a)Money ($20 or more); or (b) Tobacco (20 cigarettes or 0.6 ounces or more).
f. Anything an offender is not supposed to have, including, but not limited to: (1) Money; (2) Items used for gambling, such as dice and playing cards; (3) Books, magazines, or newspapers that are not approved for an offender to have; (4) Clothes that are not approved for an offender to have; and (5) Handcuffs or other items used for restraining offenders, including keys.
15.0 Trafficking and trading The unauthorized buying, selling, exchange, or transfer of any commodity from any individual, other than making authorized purchases from the commissary (evidence may include an excessive inventory of marketable items). This includes the unauthorized transfer of money from one offender to another, whether the transfer is direct or indirect.
So I would still state that having money would be against the law and illegal for ol' billy to have and that he got in way over his head with the death of Officer Davison.
Needless to say, It is a great pity that Billy has discovered he is a pretty decent writer at this stage in his life.
~C
January 3, 2020 at 5:04 pmIn response to the "Ryzzia" comments, the circumstances of the money is in Billy's trial transcript and the rest of what "Ryzzia" has to say can be ignored as unworthy of notice.
Ryzzia
August 13, 2019 at 11:14 pmMy question is where did he get the money? I had thought that real money in a Texas Prison was contraband and inmates were only allowed to have money on their books. So he is lying. My guess is that ol' billy decided to finally kill an officer and got way over his head.
A Friend
June 21, 2019 at 6:25 pmThe following comment is from Billy in response to Timothy'sChild:
Is there anything I can say that will get past your anger? Past your outrage for what I did?
Will my death bring you peace? Will my end quench your hostility?
Or even then will it live on?
Revenge. Revenge, not justice is what you seek. Revenge is a foul road to journey. I know, I traveled that road for many years. It ultimately led me down the path that ended with Davison’s death. With Davison’s family living without their loved one. With his two daughters living their lives without him.
All because I chose anger as my fuel and revenge as my right. Now I must live with what my choices wrought – live with my guilt. Yes, guilt. Guilt you declare I do not feel. Of all you wrote that was the only thing that hurt me.
Davison did not deserve what I did to him. That eats at me every single day. His family’s pain gnaws at me every quiet moment.
Sitting in court during my trial with Davison’s niece, Renda, staring hate at me made me want to crawl into a hole. Seeing her naked anger, rage and hate scorched me. Knowing I was the cause of it will never leave me.
One day at court my friend, Dawn, arrived in the courtroom. I noticed her come in and sit in the back directly behind Davison’s niece. I was looking directly over his niece’s head and smiled at my friend when Renda met my eyes. I saw her eyes widen, mouth open and a horrified look of shock cross her face as she thought I was smiling at her. Quickly realizing what was happening I dropped my eyes from my friends to hers and shook my head – hoping she understood I wasn't smiling at her. I then had my friend brought up front. It haunts me that she may think I would mock her grief.
I do take responsibility for what I did to Davison. I did intentionally attack him. That was no accident. I have never once stated anything different.
Davison stole five hundred dollars from me. Five hundred dollars in cash.
My stupid need for revenge, my “righteous” anger dictated I must respond to this. I chose to retaliate. My intention was just to give him a $500 ass kicking. I never intended to lose control and kill Davison.
The bottom line is simple – I chose to retaliate and that was something I could control. There is no side stepping my responsibility here.
I am not attempting to.
That is why my guilt is so unrelenting. My life for over 20 years had revolved around never allowing anyone to abuse me, in any way, without me doing something about it. I was PROUD of being that way. I was proud of my anger. Of seeking revenge.
Since Davison’s death it has exposed the hollowness of my self righteousness. Being responsible for killing someone I did not want to kill has made me see the pure folly of my whole way of thinking. Understanding this only magnifies my guilt.
My folly is why I am responding to your comment. Let your anger with me go. Let your desire for vengence recede.
I wish you peace.
Always,
Billy
Timothy’sChild
April 27, 2019 at 1:38 amYou don’t deserve anything, I’m surprised that you even painted yourself as a victim. I may not know your entire story, but you failed to explain what exactly you did. You MURDERED a innocent, kind, and genuinely good man. He had two children, and family that he loved. He did NOTHING wrong to you, he did nothing wrong to anyone for that matter. Yet you took the life he was trying to rebuild after he fell apart a few years prior.
I don’t care if the environment is horrible, you deserve it all.
I SAW you in court, you looked like you were enjoying yourself quite well. Like this was all some big vacation. And you know very well about the family he had, yet you never cared.
All those who are forced to care for you until your death, know you show NO remorse.
Timothy, was a great man, and I bet when you BEAT HIM UNTIL HIS SKULL WAS SHOWING, you seemed quite content with seeing a man being killed. I bet you enjoyed the look of panic and complete fear in his eyes. You also must have enjoyed throwing him down the stairs.
To think you even have the nerve to say it was accident when there were MULTIPLE witnesses and even camera evidence.
It’s not just Timothy that you’ve taken from, you also forgot to mention the repeated violence you’ve shown towards people.
I don’t care if they were good or bad, you still attacked them.
For you, I know that you just want to be the poor misunderstood person. But I know what you are, a monster.
Although for you and maybe others, the deepest part of Hell will open up to swallow you whole, once you get injected with the fatal shot of death. So don’t keep the Devil waiting for you, Billy.
Always, the child of Timothy Davison.
dd
January 30, 2019 at 2:40 pmI find it ironic that if there was no death penalty there would be no attention given to DR inmates. Everyone would just say 'well he's not being executed'. Would make it easier for corrupt law enforcement and corrupt prosecutors to get the win.
Like Part 2 from Tracy, this is interesting and certainly I see why a DR inmate may take this approach to writing about cohorts, but I don't feel any humanizing effect for many of these guys at all. Anthony Shore was a terrible person and needed to be put down. Just because he felt bad AFTER getting caught is not comforting and it certainly doesn't mitigate the evil that he was.
Battaglia was so consumed by hatred for his wife that he killed his kids while his wife was on the phone at another location then picked up the phone and told her 'Merry f****** Christmas' as she heard him kill the children. That's not mental illness from Agent Orange or anything like that.
Linda
January 6, 2019 at 10:21 pmWell done Billy, this is very well written and interesting. You've come up with a great idea. I'm looking forward to the next edition.
FreeClintonLeeYoung
December 31, 2018 at 12:58 amGreat writing!!! I hope & pray that them murderers of texas don't get ya Billy!!! Love being sent from Michigan -Donna
Unknown
September 14, 2018 at 12:44 amA well written and fascinating piece. I had to re-read it. Kudos my brother.
Unknown
September 13, 2018 at 1:22 pmGreat Post Billy.
From here in the UK, I watch DP events closely in Texas and the US in general, and it was very interesting to see another viewpoint; one that is never portrayed in the media.
I hope this approach you are taking helps keep you sane while you are kept on that pod. While I get why the CO's want to punish you by putting you there, there's no justification for an organisation such as the TDCJ to take additional punitive measures as they have done in your case. Very unprofessional.
Unfortunately there seems no end to the conveyor belt of executions over there so will be looking out for your next instalment of the 'Texas Death Machine' fodder.
FudgePacker
September 11, 2018 at 10:17 pmExcellent writing! I used to be pro DP until Karla Faye Tucker. I used to think "Fuck those criminals, they deserve worse than a needle." It's all wrong and it's all bad now. Sometimes we are Saints of Circumstance, how we got to where we are was pre-destined for us a long time ago; making a left turn when we should have made a right turn made all the difference in the next fork in our roads. No one came out of their mother's womb and told themselves that their aim or object in life was to cause harm and end up on death row. All of our slates were blank when we were born and they are erased when we die, what we write on those slates in between is on us and we sometimes cannot control what is written because sometimes it is written for us. Billy Tracy, you are a man worth knowing. You are a good person, a good heart and I would have really dug meeting you in this world. Carry on!
BlueJeans2004
September 11, 2018 at 1:22 amThank you for writing on behalf of these people. Humans all bleed the same. We fix nothing by repeating history and killing others. You don't owe any of us the time of day, but your talents and effort to inform us are beyond what any institution would share. Thank you – God bless.
BlueJeans2004
September 11, 2018 at 1:22 amAbsolutely stellar writing. What kind of person doesn't respond with compassion to human suffering – we all bleed the same – how do we fix crime killing more human beings? Thank you for using your time and talents this way. You owe us nothing, but have given us so much to process about the way things are going down in the system. God bless.
Joe
September 11, 2018 at 1:22 amGreat post!
You write eloquently and may be the most interesting writer here since Thomas.
I genuinely look forward to hearing more from you and hope that I will.
Your take on Thomas was the most original and interesting I have ever heard. The observation that Thomas has a disproportionately large sized head for example. The way you described this was hilarious (you have a great sense of humor, just as Thomas does).
You have, I think, provided a much better idea of how Thomas appears to people who meet him than we have seen before.
Thomas' great sense of humor for example is evufeht to those of us who only know him from his postings.
I would have imagined him as being much more outgoing and immediately relatable in person from his posts than how you describe him.
Thank you so much for choosing to share your story with us.
Unknown
September 9, 2018 at 10:37 pmVery insightful, thank you for writing for each person. I look forward to reading more from you in the future I hope.
urban ranger
September 8, 2018 at 1:00 amInteresting and informative. Thank you.