Death Watch Journal for Kevin Varga – DAY 49

I am going to try and be positive today, but that emotion seems to be in high demand lately. I try daily to think of something to stay positive. To that end I was going to open my Bible. I prayed that God guide my hand to open it to a place that he would “speak” to me through his words. I know that many of you do not read the Bible not believe in Gold altogether, but I do and hope that you do not mind me talking today about the Bible. Well when I open my Bible to a ransom spot it opened onto the passages of Lamentation 3:14-66, I am no Bible scholar to know the Bible through and through. I put it to you to read what I read there. My blood ran cold as I read these words. I thought to myself that God could have seen into my heart to lead me here. I could have written these words myself. I call your attention to the verses of Lamentations 3:53-57…

They thought they had destroyed my life in the dungeon and cast a stone over it above me. The water ran down on my head; I said, I am gone. I called upon your name, O Lord, out of the depths of the mire of the dungeon. You heard my voice then: O hide not your ear now at my prayer for relief. You drew near on the day I called to You; You said, Fear not.

How can I not believe after this? Is it pure coincidence that I prayed for guidance and have been lead to that certain set of passages? I do not believe in a coincidence that big. I am sure that many of you will still doubt and that is your right/ I myself have faith that God is real. I do not prescribe to any organized religion, I am a Christian in the purest sense. The meaning of the term “Christian” is Christ-like, to be like Christ is important. I fail on that so many times in a day. I wish I could write to you that I am the epitome of Christianity, but I am not. I still pray to God for salvation and relief. I am confident that when I die I will be brought to the kingdom of Heaven, can each of you say the same? I once heard somewhere a good thing. It went something like this… If I am wrong and there is no God then I have wasted my time with prayer and hopefully a good example, but if you are wrong then you will go to Hell. Think about this for a moment. Wouldn’t it be better to pray for salvation? I do not wish to preach only to share with you my own thoughts on the topic of God.

Thank you.

42 days to live.