Death Watch Journal for Kevin Varga – DAY 40

I cannot say that I feel much better today than I did yesterday but I feel I owe it to all of you to write my feelings down even when all I am doing is lamenting about how life has been so cruel to me. I do not want anyone to think that is all I am doing with these journal entries. I feel that I am giving a true accounting of the life of a man on death watch.

I have run a gambit of emotions since finding that my date is May 12th and only because of the positive feedback am I continuing to write to you and feel as if I am doing something that may help someone decide that capital punishment is wrong. I know that there are people who fervently believe in the old adage “an eye for an eye”. Do these people purposely forget that the Bible also states that vengeance belongs to God? Convenient right? I know that the God that saved my soul will continue to love those people but can he not show them that to kill is wrong? Yes we all know that the first commandment is “Though shalt not kill” but I guess that Texans feel this does not mean them, for in their righteousness they continue to kill without regards for the Bible that they feel gives them that self same right. I did not mean to turn this into a religious talk. I just find it hard not to break down when I think of these people having what they call a “God given right” to kill me because they have the political power to do so.

50 days to live…