I am full of energy this morning! I only slept for like six hours and needed no prompting to force myself out of bed today. I have found yet another reason for fighting. I have found someone from my past and I wish could not have been gone from my life. I have been given a gift thought her letter. I hope my elation is coming through because for the first time in days I have found a smile and I sincerely hope that I do not love it ever again. I live in an atmosphere that breeds animosity and strife, so even in the best of times, which obviously this is NOT, is not conductive to tranquility. I say this only you allow you the reader to better understand the difficulty I find in keeping my spirits up. I can still feel the shadow touch of the melancholy I have just recently been released from awaiting me. I know that each day will be a struggle, but if I can summon a single smile then I have won. I still have those fears due to a lack of communication from the people I feel are supposed to help me, but I hope that I will now have a renewed source of strength. I dedicate this entry to Dawn Marie Sippert.
Kevin Varga 999368
Polunsky Unit
3872 FM 350 South
Livingston, TX 77351
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3 Comments
Joe
August 31, 2016 at 3:05 amGood to see people still come back to read Kevin's journal. He would doubtless be extremely happy to know people would still be reading this 6 years later, especially someone who meant as much to him as you, Dawn.
Unknown
July 6, 2016 at 1:49 pmI wish you knew how deeply I still miss you. How many times I have cried for you. It's been 6 years and my heart still breaks.
Unknown
July 6, 2016 at 1:49 pmIf you only knew how much I still think of you. How many days I have cried because I miss you so much. 6 years and my heart still misses you. Dawn Marie