“Portent”
by Rhonshawn Jackson
2nite I will search the stars 4 U
In hopes 2 find out where u are
Spiritually it feels like we are connected
Even though physically u are so far
I am intrigued by your personality
And just listening 2 u is very therapeutic
I heard ya’ voice 4 the first time babygirl
And it felt like an arrow shot directly from cupid
So please don’t allow past pain & insecurities
2 convince u that u are anything less than a lady
Because I swear that I could hear the heavenz sing
Every time that u mistakenly called me baby
Right now I just wish that I could hold ‘ya hand
And look deep in2 ya’ beautiful eyes 4 awhile
Or show u that not even the moon
Can outshine ya’ beautiful smile
I don’t know what 2morrow may bring
But when it comes I hope that we are not apart
I tried my best 2 stop thinking about u “Annette”
But at night I constantly feel u tugging at my heart
If this is destiny or mere luck of the draw
Because gorgeous even though I hate 2 admit it
I think I’m falling 4 a woman that I never even saw……
Utopia
by Rhonshawn Jackson
When I close my eyez I can clearly see
A place where religion and race doesn’t matter
I can see an environment so full of love and unity
That when the lights come on the roaches don’t even scatter
In my mindz eye I can clearly see a vision
So full of hope and prosperity with every single step
I can see humanity without wars and weapons
Negating the need of a bulletproof vest 2 preserve my very last breath
Can you take a moment and just picture this place with me
Where flowers bloom and hunger is washed away with the ocean tide
A place where I can walk down the streets with my wife and children
Without the need of an automatic weapon by my side
With my eyez closed I can finally see the uplifting of black women
By each and every single black male
I can even see my black kings reuniting with each other
Instead of gangbanging, genociding, or being thrown in2 anotha’ packed jail
I can then see white Amerikka finally taking responsibility
4 the wrongs they have committed against other races and nations
Bcuz’ only then will we B able 2 rise as a people
And get 2 look at each other objectively without hating
But then I am 4orced 2 open up my eyez
And see this planet 4 what it really is
This is a place where 2 much blood has been shed
And people are 2 bent on revenge 2 4give
So even though I would love 2 see us evolve and fly
The reality is that the savagery we have created will never cease
Which is why my ideal vision will never B brought in2 fruition
Bcuz’ humanity on this planet is just not ready 2 experience world peace…….
You
by Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated to the mother of my only seed
I never found a moment of peace on this planet
As I endured multiple hardships and pain
At night I begged God 2 show me a miracle and a sign
And then miraculously u came
My mind was plagued by demons
Which caused the window 2 my soul 2 B shut
The entrance 2 my heart had been closed down
Until u reached in2 my chest and opened it up
So “Kyonna” I apologize 4 the times that I hurt U
Or the moments that I made U feel unloved and sad
Through ya’ womb I am blessed with the greatest gift
Of having a creation from inside of u 2 call me dad
And I want U 2 know that I am proud of U Babygirl
4 taking care of our son while U were all alone
In my twenty year absence U kept our son fed, clothed and safe
And Babygirl U did it all on ya’ own
Which is why I want U 2 know “Kyonna”
That I really do need U in my life
Becuz’ no other woman will love me completely like u do
Or B able 2 make the transition from being my girl 2 becoming my wife
And even though I’ve been with countless women
My love 4 u will unconditionally remain true
Becuz’ what I’ve discovered with u is eternal “Nicole”
And no other woman will ever B able 2 compare 2 U!…
4ever
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Never in ya’ lifetime
Will u encounter an entity as contagious as me
Inside my heart there lives a warrior
That is fighting eternally 2 one day be free
My mind is polluted with venomous thoughts
But somehow my essence remains pure
Scientists have diagnosed my mind state as a disease
But have yet 2 come up with a cure
Many men have tried 2 walk in my shoes
Only 2 succumb 2 their destined fate
Because when death knocked at their door
They finally realized that they couldn’t eat off of life’s plate
So I was blessed with this curse
And 4orced 2 carry it around on my own
Knowing that this world could never love me
So I would have to walk this path all alone
But I was born with clairvoyance
Complete with a wild heart that could never B tamed
Silently I watched as phony women and friends
Plotted 2 take advantage of me in this game
Somehow I overcame every obstacle
And never once did I make friends with defeat
Becuz’ I knew that at the end of my journey
Men like me would die on our feet
Never regretting what we did in life
Or what we’ll B 4orced 2 do in the next
I understand that my demise is a norm
That will come as natural as my next breath
So I fought hard and vigorously
Fighting 2 one day make it better
Knowing that at the end of my reign
My name will eternally live on 4ever….
Being Me
By Rhonshawn Jackson
I come from an elite bloodline
That fought triumphantly not 2 B vilified
Through ruins and debris I stumbled
Not knowing that in my death I would B deified
This world sought 2 break me
Making a nightmare out of my dream
But throughout everything that they threw at me
In the end I have always reigned supreme
Incapable of being truly loved
So I walked this earth all alone
Blindly feeling 4 my way in the dark
Trying 2 find someone 2 call my own
Never once did I bow my head
Or let the pressure bring me 2 my knees
Knowing that this life is nothing but a bitch
That comes and goes as she pleases
So courageously I accepted my destiny
Prepared 2 embrace my fate
My ambitions are almost legendary
Even though my death won’t B a mistake
Understanding that they can’t let me live
Allowing my genetics 2 become a blemish
Because the worst thing that they could ever do
Is 2 let my mind state become an epidemic
Which is why I am 4orced 2 live with this curse
Until the moment I am spiritually free
Cause no physical being could ever relate
Or comprehend what it feels like being me….
Kyonna
By Rhonashawn Jackson
Dedicated to my soulmate
I don’t’ know how much longer I’ll B on this earth
Or if my message will make any pf my people listen
But I just pray that GOD grants me enough time
2 finally complete my mission
U came in2 my life as a miracle
Connected 2 a blessing I would need later on in life
U R the mother of my only mature seed
As well as my loyal, strong, go hard 4 me wife
What u represent 2 me cannot B put in2 words
Becuz’ U represent a variety of different things
Here on earth u have become my left rib
But up in Heaven u are my only set of wings
I have given my flesh 2 plenty of women
Chasing desires and lust I found lurking in the dark
Fooled by what I mistakenly thought was love
Until U came along and defined the nature of my heart
Inside of U I have discovered a raw passion
That mortal men have yet 2 find
U have conquered my heart and soul
And in the process U have given me peace of mind
Which is why U and I share an eternal bond
That I will honor until my last breath
So don’t ever worry about being alone
Becuz’ I will B beside U until the day of my death
Cherishing U in this lifetime and the next
Becuz’ in ya’ heart I have finally found a home
Which is why I wanna thank U Kyonna Nicole Jackson
4 finally giving me a true love 2 call my own….
Happy 2 B Alive
By Rhonshawn Jackson
When we met at 12 years old
I just knew that I had 2 have U 4 my own
And after hearing about ya’ deadly one night stands
I couldn’t wait till’ the moment I got U alone
It was like we were destined 2 B
Every time my fingers wrapped around ya’ waist
I became so addicted 2 ya’ love
That at night I kept U close 2 me, face 2 face
This world will never understand our bond
Or the reason why u became my wife
I just love how when u get mad
Some pathetic loser always lost his life
U are always on my side
And 2gether we will rule this world
4 eternity I will B ya’ King
Just as long as U continue 2 B my girl
So from this day forth I promise 2 remain loyal
And 4ever keep u by my side
Becuz’ the day I caressed u with a full clip
I was happy 2 B alive….
IMPETUS
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated 2 Carolyn M. Dantzler-Cheek, my counselor at SCI-Albion who helped me
We come from 2 different walks of life
Yet our destinies have brought us here
U were born with an altruistic nature
And I represent what society fears
This world never carved out a place 4 me
And the pain I feel can B felt from afar
Demons have tried 2 possess my soul
Only 2 realize that I am a shooting star
Inside of my mind there lives a warrior
That seeks 2 protect my inner child
My heart was once known as a control freak
Until U usurped its power with ya’ smile
U will never understand the utopia
That you have created just by lending an ear 2 listen
The kindness U have shown me brought back pieces of my spirit
That I didn’t even realize was missing
And right now I don’t have a lot of riches 2 offer U
Or anything equivalent 2 ‘ya weight in gold
But I promise U, I will remember ‘ya manna
Until the day my body turns cold
Which is why I hope this small token of sincerity
Will show gratitude 4 the support U give the men
So rest assure that whoever I may become in this lifetime Ms. Cheek
I will never 4get 2 be ‘ya friend…..
“Ms. Cheek, thank U 4 allowing me 2 B human again, ‘bcuz it was frustrating being a slave”
NIAMKE
(Means “God’s Gift” in Swahili)
Written By: Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated 2 my Babygirl Pamela Sargeant
“2nite I will search the Heavenz
in hopes of finding a resemblance of ya’ smile
Bcuz’ just like the never ending flow of the Milky Way
ya’ Beauty runs deeper than the Afrikan Nile
On a good day I can see the cosmos
positioned in it’s greatness from afar
So when I want 2 connect with u spiritually
I just focus my minds eye on the brightest star
Knowing that only an angelic presence
could resonate in the sky shining so bright
Illuminating the world with ya’ essence
while producing such an Heavenly light
I have been blessed with ya’ presence
so full of regal grace and stature
And by default I have become Marc Antony
bcuz’ in my eyez U are the mighty Cleopatra
Which means that ya’ love will give me life
even in the mist of a premeditated death
Revealing that only ya’ kiss and touch
can resuscitate my very last breath
Surrounding me with an eternal impetus
more sacred than an innocent child’s wish
Understanding that U Pamela Sargeant
were sent 2 me on this planet as God’s Gift”…
Follow Me in the Jungle
Written By: Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated 2 the Lying Politicians in all of the poverty stricken communities
around the world and the Government!
Come travel with me 2 a place
where all of the inhabitants are cruel and livid
A place where lions, tigers, and bears become prey
and even God thinks twice B4 he comes 2 visit
Come and let me introduce u 2 this world
where being born with black skin is a curse
A world so deeply rooted with hate, deception, lies, and racism
that Black mothers murder their Black babies at birth
Come take a look at my ancestors whip-scarred backs
mixed in with the blood that fell from their flesh
Or can u feel the pain of a battered and bruised heart
4orced 2 witness the mutilation and torture of countless black deaths?
At night can u picture the silent cries of the oppressed
or the yells from the brutal raping and torture of a slave girl?
Or can u smell the foul stench of the countless burned black bodies
that chose death rather than becoming a shadow in the white manz world?
Come and walk with me through this forest of darkness
filled with vultures, leeches, parasites, and rats
This forest represents the allure of prison disguised as freedom
that has convinced countless Black souls to fall 4 it’s traps
Come take a trip through these crack infested neighborhoods
filled with thieves, murderers, and burglars that can’t wait 2 loot
At night u can clearly see death lurking on the corner
waiting 2 snatch the last breath from some poverty stricken youth
Bcuz’ this place I come from is not 4 the weak or faint of heart
cuz’ it breeds misery, rage, death, pain, and trouble
So if u ever think that U-R brave enough 2 walk a mile in my shoes
then take this journey 2 Hell with me and follow me in the jungle!”…
Bee
Written By Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated 2 a special woman named “B. Oort” from the “House of Healing” company.
“I don’t know how much longer my spirit has here
or how much longer my heart can endure this earth
But I do know that I have persevered
throughout every adversity since my birth
My mistakes taught me painful lessons
similar 2 the Bulletproof vest that kept me alive
This world tried its best 2 crucify me
but somehow I vehemently survived
Then God sent me a special friend
that would shine light on my darkest night
She was non-judgmental and compassionate
and understood the reason I had 2 fight
She took the time out 2 listen 2 my heart
so that she could diagnose my pain
Then she took me through 14 steps of healing
and in the process she diagnosed this treacherous game
And I just want 2 tell U that I appreciate ya’ nature
so full of patience, warmth, and care
I just wish that I could erase the pain I feel
of U no longer being there
But I know that nothing lasts 4ever
and every living creature has it’s own destiny
So if we are meant 2 fly in different directions
then just know that I will never 4get U Bee”…
4 THOSE THAT I FAILED
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated 2 those that I disappoint and the generation coming after me
I hope that U can 4give me 4 being human
And 4 making my share of mistakes
This world was just 2 cold 4 me 2 melt
So I ran wild rather than become one of the snakes
My heart was broken in 2 many pieces
By venomous women and dishonorable thugz
I was chosen by default 2 diagnose hate
Not realizing how much I yearned 4 a real woman’s love
My free spirit constantly got me in trouble
Due to being outspoken and full of pride
Bcuz’ I didn’t comprehend the essence of true sacrifice
4 which so many of my ancestors had died
2morrow is promised 2 no one
And hard times 4 my black race was a given
But I stood tall and never gave up
Understanding that fighting is just another part of living
So 4 those that seek 2 judge me
Or crucify me 4 the errors I made
Let it B known that I’m guilty of taking risks
In a game that wasn’t supposed 2 B played
Which is why I relentlessly searched for death
Rather than B trapped down here in this Hell
Hoping that God protects the next generation
And shows 4giveness 4 those that I failed….
FLOWERS IN THE DESERT
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Inspired by: Pamela Sargeant and dedicated 2 all of the female underdogs
Somehow U actually blossomed
Despite the conditions around U being desolate and dry
U beat the odds 4 survival
In a world that was destined 4 U 2 die
Throughout the hardships of life
And adversity lurking in the mist
Not once did U allow ya’ circumstances
2 B the reason why U didn’t exist
So U continued 2 fight with ya’ all
Regardless of the limited resources U were given
The environment around U was full of misery and death
Yet somehow U kept on living
Proving that anything is possible on this earth
If only U just believe that U can
Bcuz’ who would’ve ever imagined a beautiful flower growing in the desert
With only the help of sunlight and sand…..
Where Were U?
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated 2 My Black Race
4 over 400 years of slavery
And all of the Black nation’s suffering and pain
We repeatedly called on u 4 help
But to no avail u never came
My Black Sistas have been repeatedly raped
Brain washed, tortured & used
Psychologically they R degraded and dehumanized
As u sit back and watch every bruise
My Black Brothas have been mentacided
And taught not 2 unite or love one another
So our destination is prison or death
Causing grief 2 yet another black mother
I look at the world in its entirety
And find it quite impossible not 2 go crazy
How can I be sane in a society
That allows people 2 prey on lil’ innocent babies?
I’ve witnessed sons rape mothers
And fathers rape daughters
I’ve even witnessed Judges molest children
Then turn right around and give us orders
I watched religion conquer and divide us
And coerce us in2 killing our own kind
Bamboozled and trapped between Heaven and Hell
Not realizing that they both exist in our mind
Through miseducation we were thrown off course
And we lost ourselves because we 4got 2 stay true
Instead of embracing the power we have in ourselves
We failed because we put all of our faith in U
They took us through an identity crisis
And robbed us of our true beliefs, values and cultures
Then 4orced us 2 believe that they were better than us
After we got victimized by these vultures
Then century after century we repeatedly asked for ya’ help
Because we didn’t fully understand ya’ plan
If only we would’ve got off of our knees and opened our eyes
We would’ve saw that U were no better than man
But instead we fell 4 ya’ traps
And got seduced by ya’ religious jargon and counterfeit lies
Silently I watched as ya’ gifts and broken promises
Led generations of my people 2 their demise
And no I’m not speaking Blasphemy
I’m just speaking on an entity that showed us no love
Because I never asked 2 be given this world
So why should I be cursed 4 being a thug?
In my heart I’m constantly searching 4 peace
But u knew the deception behind the life that u gave us
Yet u turn around and punish us 4 our imperfections
Instead of admitting that U errored in the way that U made us
So now I’m 4orced 2 see U 4 who U really are
Understanding that all along U was nothing but a fake
And that putting all of my belief and faith in U
Turned out 2 be one of my biggest mistakes
Because it took 4 me 2 understand myself first
B4 I understood that what U were selling us wasn’t true
Cause through all of the years of enduring slavery and pain
My question 2 U GOD is where were U?
GOD answered: “My child, I have been right here all of this time, just waiting for my chosen
People to change the conditions of themselves, so that I could put forth my hand and change
The conditions of my chosen people.”
Black Butterfly
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated to Fred Hampton
I wish I had a huge pair of wings
So I could fly away from poverty
I wish I had a cocoon
So no oppressors could bother me
With my huge set of wings
I would fly away from slavery
Then I could somehow help my people
And show a little bit of bravery
My life would be so much better
If I could adapt 2 any kind of weather
They sky would be the limit
So I would soar like a plucked feather
Immune 2 all danger
I could finally be free
2 find a place in this cruel world
Full of love and life 4 me
But because of my color
I am just destined 2 die
My life is full of agony and misery
As the Black Butterfly….
All We Really Have
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated to the Black Race
The future is a mystery
That this world is not ready 2 uncover
Just like ya’ heart is a sensitive organ
That’s not ready 2 B possessed by another careless lover
2morrow is not promised 2 anyone
And each breath we take can B our last
So instead of wasting time on hate and greed
We should unite B4 we see a repeat of our past
I’m not afraid 2 fight 4 what is mines
Or die 4 a cause that I believe in
But I know in the end I will be B crucified
Because I have the heart and courage 2 lead men
A lot of our elders and teachers are dead
And those we have left are 2 afraid 2 face this
Instead of marching we need lots of weapons and ammunition
2 match the energy of these devils and racists
And if we really want the killings by these cops 2 stop
Then we need 2 prepare ourselves instead of getting mad
So it’s time 4 us 2 fight and die 4 our true freedom
Or becoming the white manz victim is all we really have….
Pamela
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated 2 My Babygirl/Homegirl Pamela Sargeant
No one will ever comprehend our bond
Or understand the horrors we’ve witnessed in our struggle
But I promise U that until death and beyond
I will always unconditionally love U
What U represent 2 me in this life
Cannot B explained by mere words or a single notion
Bcuz’ what I possess 4 U in my heart
Is beyond feelings or any human emotion
U have shined light on my darkest of days
And gave hope in my times of despair
My only fear in this life is the absence
Of U no longer being there
If only U knew the depths of my love 4 U
And how dearly I value ya’ presence
Only then would U be able 2 appreciate my heart
And truly diagnose my essence
Which is why b4 I must let go of my spirit
I want 2 leave this world a message more valuable than gold
Tell ‘em that “Pamela Sargeant” wasn’t just a loyal and true friend
She was also the Captain of my soul….
SUI GENERIS
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated 2 Pamela’s Sargeant’s son who has Down Syndrome
+ Every Child Born With Down Syndrome
There is nothing on this planet like U
So please B prepared 4 this world 2 test U
They will always look at U as different
Because what U possess inside of U is special
U come from a bloodline of warriors
Greatness and indigenous people
Your ancestors died 4 your independence
So that no enemy could ever defeat U
Inside of U there lies a strength
That will assist U when you’re on ya’ own
So never fear what lies in the dark
Cuz’ god will never allow U 2 B alone
And there will B times when U feel weak
Or like U are just down on ya’ luck
But these R the times when U need 2 believe in ya’ self
And against all odds don’t ever give up
Bcauz’ U have a long fight ahead of U
Against some cruel people that don’t care
But just remember that U come from greatness
So stay strong and never show no fear
Your mother is the epitome of strength
So I can just imagine how brave that U are
And she will help U 2 accomplish all of ya’ dreams
Because U were destined 2 B a star
Which is why I reached out 2 meet U
B4 this life of ours came 2 an end
So I could let U know that I feel ya’ pain
And that as long as I’m alive U will always have a friend….
If U Look In2 My Eyes
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated 2 Huey Newton
If U look in2 my eyes
All U will see is a world full of pain
A place where I am oppressed
So my mind is constantly in a strain
If U look in2 my eyes
U will see why I’m a Thug
So look in2 the depths of my soul
And tell me why U can’t find no love
If U look in2 my eyes
U will discover all of the misery
And generations of blood, sweat and tears
My people shed searching 4 equality
If U look in2 my eyes
You’ll find a King who is now afraid
That his demise is churning near
And he just might die as a slave
So when U look in2 my eyes
Please B bold and tell me what U see
Cause all I see is an endangered species
That just one day wants 2 B free….
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Only God Can Judge Me
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated 2 Denmark Vesey and Nat Turner
Drenched and tormented
As I walk through the gates of Hell
My head is hung high
Despite my adversaries cries 4 me to fail
I will walk this path alone
With sincere faith and regal grace
While demons claw at my flesh and shower me with sins
Not a tear will be shed down my face
I’ve been betrayed by my friends
And crucified by my brethren
But in my heart I see a justice
That one day my soul may enter in2 Heaven
I have no room 4 love
Cause love no longer lives here
All I can see is misery and hate
And angels 2 scared 2 conquer their fear
When my punishment is passed down
And my knees are 2 weak 2 bow
I will accept my fate like a man
Never whimpering or showing a frown
If I am truly wrong 4 the way that I have lived my life
No hypocrite, scholar or politician will ever B able 2 touch me
Becuz’ I’ve walked this earth 2 the best of my ability
Knowing in my heart that
Only God Can Judge Me!
Where R All The Good Men?
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated 2 Halle Berry’s Question
Where R all the Good Men?
Sista did U even take the time 2 look?
Or were U 2 busy putting us down
Or searching 4 me in ya’ latest book?
Where R all the Good Men?
We R trapped in places we don’t belong
So don’t give up on me Black Woman
Just becuz’ one foul brotha did U wrong
Where R all the Good Men?
Open ya’ eyes and then maybe you’ll see
That everything you’ve been looking 4
Can B discovered right here in me
Where R all the good Men?
We’re confined in ya’ latest prison
4 chasing the American Dream
With ambitions of a better living
Where R all the Good Men?
U pass us every day in line
But ya’ mind was focused elsewhere
Which made me hard 4 U 2 find
Where R all the Good Men?
Sista did U even take the time 2 look?
Or were U 2 busy putting us down
Or searching 4 me in ya’ latest book?
If Only Heaven Has a Ghetto
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated 2 Tupac Shakur
Please Lord, when I die
Take my soul 2 Heaven so I can finally rest
Don’t let me go in violence
Or I will surely miss my last breath
Take me away in peace
Or possibly in my sleep
Let my blood flow thick
While it showers the streets with peace
Let the principles I lived 4
Be the payment 4 our freedom
Can my heart B cashed in 4 miracles?
Becuz’ believe me Lord we need ‘em
Who could I trust?
My fake homies envied me over material possessions
While the women I considered dear
Tainted my psychological blessings
I pray that my death
Will give my people a vision they will never let go
Becuz’ I will soon B closer 2 God
If Only Heaven Has A Ghetto….
Drugs
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated 2 All Those Affected By The Drug Epidemic
I watched U destroy my mother
I watched U destroy my father
I stood back and watched U genocide my people
Because I was 2 mentacided and weak 2 bother
I watched U destroy dreams
I watched U turn Queens in2 fiends
I watched the sadness that a hit of U brings
I watched U make peasants out of my Black Kings
I watched U cold heartedly kill Babies and Lil’ Kids
I watched U force my people in2 long prison bids
I watched U disrespect and destroy my Sistas
I watched U turn my people against one another
And pretend like you’re the one that truly loves us
U have no conscience, no feelings, no remorse
And no love
I hate the day that U were ever created and made
I despise U drugs!
Purposely
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated 2 My Mother Debra Jackson
Why did this world have 2 curse U
4 being a woman that was Black?
And at times when U couldn’t feed us
U were 4orced 2 lay on ya’ back
Mom, I apologize 4 all of ya’ pain
As well as your internal sacrifice
I was just 2 young 2 understand
The trials and tribulations of living life
Thank U 4 being honest with me
At times when U could’ve lied
And I pray that GOD grants U Heaven
4 all of the times that U cried
Cuz’ in my eyes U tried
And 4 that I will always love U
Cuz’ until they’ve walked a mile in ya’ shoes
Nobody has the right 2 judge U
U were abused, raped, and tortured
Yet somehow U remained strong
Momma in my eyes U were always right
Even when this cold world considered U wrong
And no matter what I got ya’ back Mom
So U will never be alone
I just wish that I could be with U
On the day that GOD takes U back home
Don’t Let Go of My hand
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated 2 My Heart Pamela Sergeant
I can’t tell U what 2morrow brings
Cuz’ I don’t even know if I’ll be here
But if I don’t die b4 I wake
I can promise U that I’ll always care
Right now I really don’t have much 2 offer U
Besides a wild spirit and an untamed heart
But my ambitions are almost legendary
So my arrival will be much more than a spark
My life has been full of various struggles
Dishonorable friends and manufactured pain
I repeatedly asked God 2 show me a sign
And then suddenly U came
U will never understand the utopia U have given me
By just reaching out 2 me once in a while
So since they say that hell is right here on earth
Then Heaven can’t be 2 far from ya’ smile
I will 4ever B grateful 4 that day that U 4gave me
4 a moment when my response 2 U was brutally cold
And I thank U 4 trusting me enough 2 open up 2 me
Because it meant more 2 me than gold
I apologize 4 the times that I hurt U
In my pursuit 2 make my mark
My actions defied what I truly felt 4 U
Because I was a product of the poison that was in my heart
At night I silently prayed 2 God
To 4give me 4 my sins and all of the horrible things that I did
I don’t know what the future has in store 4 us
Or how long I’m even gonna live
But I will face my fate with no fear
Until the moment my spirit is free
I have dedicated my life 2 change
In hopes that I will one day meet my destiny
So please let this world know
That U got 2 know Rhonshawn Jackson the man
And whatever happens between us from here on out
Pamela Sargeant, just please don’t let go of my hand
Fallen Angels
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated 2 All of the Fallen Angels That Are Being Oppressed On This Planet
U told me that U loved me unconditionally
But yet U let my mother get addicted 2 crack
U said my people were the greatest creation on earth
Then U allowed us 2 become slaves just 4 being Black
U told me that U were oft 4giving
But then U turn around and punish us 4 being imperfect
Year after year innocent women and children are murdered
While we continue 2 give U prayers that are not even worth it
What sane individual in their right mind
Would offer this cruel place 2 their child?
That’s like allowing your baby 2 be raised in the jungle
Then turning around and punishing him 4 being wild
U placed me on a planet full of war and bloodshed
Without any location of refuge 2 run
So after witnessing all of these senseless murders and killings
Why wouldn’t I live my life by the gun?
In all of your religious books and scriptures
U said that U would lead the wild in2 the ways of the man
But yet we are continuously 4orced 2 live like savages
While we become casualties and pawns in ya’ sick plan
And please don’t tell me about the rewards of Heaven
After U sentenced me 2 live down here in Hell
Becauz’ that would be like telling me about the beauty of freedom
After U sentenced me 2 a lifetime in jail
And I hope that U can 4give me 4 being angry
4 being subjected 2 all of this unnecessary pain
Becauz’ why should I have 2 be cursed 4ever
Just 4 being born in this treacherous game?
So that’s why I am fighting 2 get up and out of this maze
B4 I get trapped inside of this hurricane’s swirl
Then I can repair my broken wings and fly away
Instead of being stranded down here in this gold cold world
Forbidden Thoughts
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated 2 Me
I finally understand my true mission
So I am not opposed 2 the hardships in my past
I realize that my death will be horrible
So any word, any meal, at any minute
Just might be my last
I’ve had nightmares about this moment
Dreading my unfortunate date
Finally I’ve come 2 grips with the reality
That there is just no escaping my fate
4 those of my peers who’ve grown 2 know me
And got a chance 2 judge me pass my violence
Please let the world know that I was a product of my environment
And that my tranquility lived deep inside of my silence
Because somebody offered me a world
That my conscience wasn’t ready 2 see
Cultivating thoughts inside of my mind
That my essence wasn’t ready 2 be
But inside my heart I searched for peace
Amongst a lifetime of war
Praying 2 whatever God that created me
So that my people would have 2 suffer no more
Only 2 realize that my blessings were not perceptible
And all of my begging was in vain
So I’d rather go out in a blaze of glory
B4 I succumbed 2 another man’s visions of change
Knowing that I might B sentenced 2 Hell
4 exercising my own free will
So while I’m burning in flames I’ll eternally scream
FUCK THE WORLD, I KEPT IT REAL!!!
Prophecy
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated 2 George Jackson
Since the beginning of my existence
Scientists have tried 2 imitate my state of mind
I come from an honorable, elite, set of genetics
And an unconquerable bloodline
Through stroke of luck I made it this far
Constantly hunted since the day of my birth
My true enemy understands the strength in my essence
So they seek 2 exterminate me from the face of this earth
I stand on strong principles
And a set of beliefs and morals that only princes die 4
In my heart I really wish I could erase
All of the pain that my Black sistas have cried 4
We have sold ourselves 4 crumbs
Because we became hypnotized by their lies
One day I hope 2 see my Black Kings unite
And all of my Ghetto Queens rise!
Through religion we were put 2 sleep
As we waited 4 help on our knees
While they murdered innocent women and children
That actually thought God could hear their pleas
But I was sent 2 set the record straight
Because the future lies in my eyes
And because I’ll never turn my back on this struggle
I know that they’ll never take me alive
Eternal
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Men like me come around
Once in every generation
Because my essence was made so strong and powerful
That my spirit spreads throughout my whole nation
I will never be conquered
As long as my mind continues 2 roam free
Strange men seek after my soul
So they can destroy the beauty inside of me
But never once did I flinch
Or run from this 4seen death
I finally came 2 grips with the reality
That my peace lied in my last breath
Knowing that I will B 4gotten by this world
Even though I cried out 4 its love
I just hope my death will bring a freedom
2 all of my enslaved Hoodlums and Thugz
I ran wild and lived my life relentless
Ducking and dodging cops often
Because I understood that the end of my road
Would lead 2 me being tightly tucked in a coffin
Watching my Black Brothas die on the streets
Profusely caused my heart 2 bleed
Leaving me so paranoid about this planet
That I was even afraid 2 have me a seed
So I leave all of my young comrades with this message
And I hope that they keep it inside of their journal
This world hates us 4 what’s inside of our essence
But they fear us because were ETERNAL!
The Lions That Wouldn’t Fight Back
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated 2 My Black Race
I once saw a group of lions roaming in the wild
They looked strong, fearless and fierce
From the adults down 2 their youngest child
I watched them play with each other and show each other love
Autodidact in their survival skills
The Kings of the jungle, from the female down 2 the cubs
Then one day a group of rabbits approached the pack
And I just knew 4 sure
That the lions would stop them dead in their tracks
But the lions backed down
And let the rabbits take over the territory
The rabbits set rules all across the land
Then enslaved the other lions and destroyed their glory
I knew that this was now the end of the track
Never in life could I ever imagine
Lions reacting like this under attack
Now they have given up their pride and legacy
And have fallen deep in2 a trap
A kingdom now brought 2 ruins
All because of the lions that wouldn’t fight back
Flawless
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated 2 Richard Pryor
I thank God 4 sending us
An angel 2 brighten up our days
U shined light on our darkest nights
With ya humor and articulate ways
Mr Pryor U will never be 4gotten
4 the breath of life U are
A Black King that shined so bright
God transformed U in2 a star
Ya’ heart was made of beauty
With a spirit compelled of gold
Through poverty and misery U struggled
2 help ya story 2 B told
So I’m glad I had the chance
2 enjoy U for 65 years
Because U put a smile on my face
Where there once were silent tears
2 Die 4
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated 2 The Black Woman
You’ve given birth 2 Prophets, Messengers and Revolutionaries
Stood and fought 4 oppressed men
Held captive in penitentiaries
U risked ya’ life in order 2 achieve freedom
Rescued slaves and fought 4 rights
Even though U didn’t need them
U have ruled empires
And destroyed armies with the sweep of your hand
Just your mere presence
Can warm the coldest of man
Your love is strong, concerning and patient
Only though your womb
Can we help to populate this Black nation
Your essence is BEAUTIFUL
With the science and sophistication of a sphinx
Because without U on this earth
Our whole species would become extinct
U are the MOTHER OF MAN (M.O.M), the backbone of family
And the most precious gift that a King could wish 4
So therefore Black Woman
U are 2 DIE 4
My Shoes
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated 2 Marvin Gaye During HIs Addiction When He Needed
Us The Most And We Just Let Him Down
Imagine living in poverty
And having nowhere 2 run
Where crime looks like ya’ only escape
From the barrel of a loaded gun
My skin is my sin
So misery is my best friend
At night I humbly ask 4 God
2 bring this 2 its final end
No one understands my pain
My shoulders are sore from the pressure
The world is convinced I’m crazy
Cuz’ my frown is my friendly gesture
I am all alone on this earth
Isolated like a child at birth
I pray that my destiny soon comes
Because’ believe me life hurts!
And U may try to be brave
Or spite me 4 singing the blues
But I guarantee U would beg 4 death 2
If U walked a mile in my shoes
Where Nobody Cares
By Rhonshawn Jackson
Dedicated 2 Phyllis Hyman
I’m looking 4 love
Cuz’ I’m stuck in a world full of greed and hate
Everybody is 4 their self
Until the day we meet our telegraphic fate
Emotions are ya’ worst enemy
While people misuse love 2 befriend me
I’m running out of time on this journey
Because I can feel the hate rising stronger
My last breath is becoming shorter
While the pain and misery grows longer
Who can U trust
In a world full of lies and deceit?
Where every place u turn
Another brotha is being swept off his feet
While the happiness is gone
And unity is considered wrong
My life is full of pain and suffering
And I don’t think this is where I belong
So I’ve conquered all my fears
And dried up all of my tears
Hoping that I can make it 2 heaven
Instead of being in this place
Where Nobody Cares….
Guilty Until Proven Innocent
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