If Black Souls Could Swim….
By Malcolm Scott
Can you swim in chains
tread water in the deep end of an infinite Ocean?
Here I am trapped in this expanse of fluid(s) in motion,
My physical shell has sunk deep…. food for life Aquatic:
Remembrance,
as I still float here….
I remember the horror of being beaten and dragged away from my home….
Bloodied & broken,
unable to protect them….
I remember hearing my wife & kids screaming for me….as they met the same fate,
Who are these pale ones…. Why do they hate me?
Why are neighboring tribesmen helping them destroy me?
Were only moments ago you were a guest in my home breaking bread.
Held hostage for profit,
Kept chained in the sweltering bowels of coffin ships…. foot to cheek cramped body to body,
It’s getting harder to breathe
I feel like my soul to leave the mortal coil,
I’ve been laying here for so long,
I can feel liquid in my lungs, I feel like I’m drowning,
I. Can’t. Breathe!
When the breathing stops like so much refuse living or dead they throw our bodies into a hungry sea,
2 million plus souls met this fate…
Middle passage littered with the bodies of Men, Women, and Children erased from the pages of History remember them then you will be able to remember me,
Here I am trapped in this expanse of fluid(s) in motion,
My grave is this Infinite Ocean,
If Black Souls could Swim. I could leave this place and float to Heaven,
Can you SWIM IN CHAINS?
Treading water in the deepest end of Eternities Ocean?
[AFTER LAND FALL]
Inherently your history…. A noose around my neck,
Your children with shovels in tiny hands barely strong enough to hold’em,
Delighting in your deed(s) excited at the prospect of burying me a slave….
(but I’m not dead yet!!!)
Carrying me away…. dumping my form in a shallow unmarked, unconsecrated Grave,
A lasting Memory…. Family heirloom burying me a slave.
Are there worst fates then being thrown into the hungry jaws the Ocean?
If Black Souls could Swim
Love
By Malcolm Scott
LOVE….
Where’s LOVE when I’m….. Depressed and alone,
Where’s LOVE when I ….Need someone to wipe tears from my eyes…..
Where’s LOVE when I’m… Hurting…that voice telling me everything’s alright……
LOVE,
I’m tired of losing myself,
Dazed & Confused
discarded after being abused
by YOU,
Fleeing refugee cowering on the cusp of Oblivion,
One step away from Annihilation……
My mind filled with broken hearted revelations
CHASING YOU……
Feeling like my existences unworthy…. of you,
Why do you pleasure in hurting me?
Is it because of your worth to me?
Eternal Pauper
because I
don’t have you….
What’s Love without LOVE
but a empty shell, empty Actions, empty Promises, empty Words…..LOVE
Without Love
The grass gets no greener, the air no fresher,
Broken heart Comatosed
heavy against the inside of my chest and with every step that I take I CAN. FEEL. ITS PRESSURE!
My sentiment should be
F@*k LOVE !….
But Love created me, its the power that informs my being,
Instructs my pen, the goal that elevates me
When it is all said and done, it is the thing….
Keep Moving
By Malcolm Scott
Right foot – left foot! I gotta keep moving
My stride unsteady – my tear-filled eyes
Trying to focus on a new horizon
While all around me the shadows
Whisper to me
Taunting me – laughingly reminding me
Of my brokenness
Of a mother’s willingness to corrupt my innocence
Left foot – right foot!
Psychosomatic – psycho analytical
Suicidal tendencies birth from abandonment and neglect
Socially apathetic
Because your laws couldn’t – no wouldn’t – protect me
From a mother and her sister who
Thought
Familial love them raping me
Destroying
And breaking me
Making me believe the notion
That God hated me
Right foot – left foot!
Feeling alone
I withdrew into myself
Find safety in being introverted
One man island
That were I found my home
But the space was too small
It being crowded with past hurts
Broken dreams and pieces of the lost child in me
My inner sanctum wasn’t infinite
I slowly realized – in here
There wasn’t enough space for me to be alone
Left foot – right foot!
One step after another
I gotta keep moving – in pain – always the hunted
Seeking my safe haven
To make my stand
And stop running
Even when it feels like pain is perpetual
You can only find a piece of peace
When you are
Loving you
Right foot – left foot!
Left foot – right foot!
I gotta keep moving
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