Keep Moving
By Malcolm Scott
Right foot – left foot! I gotta keep moving
My stride unsteady – my tear-filled eyes
Trying to focus on a new horizon
While all around me the shadows
Whisper to me
Taunting me – laughingly reminding me
Of my brokenness
Of a mother’s willingness to corrupt my innocence
Left foot – right foot!
Psychosomatic – psycho analytical
Suicidal tendencies birth from abandonment and neglect
Socially apathetic
Because your laws couldn’t – no wouldn’t – protect me
From a mother and her sister who
Thought
Familial love them raping me
Destroying
And breaking me
Making me believe the notion
That God hated me
Right foot – left foot!
Feeling alone
I withdrew into myself
Find safety in being introverted
One man island
That were I found my home
But the space was too small
It being crowded with past hurts
Broken dreams and pieces of the lost child in me
My inner sanctum wasn’t infinite
I slowly realized – in here
There wasn’t enough space for me to be alone
Left foot – right foot!
One step after another
I gotta keep moving – in pain – always the hunted
Seeking my safe haven
To make my stand
And stop running
Even when it feels like pain is perpetual
You can only find a piece of peace
When you are
Loving you
Right foot – left foot!
Left foot – right foot!
I gotta keep moving
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