This Ain’t Living
Written thoughts by Ojore Dhoruba
This ain’t livin’
Immobilised
Cramped in a bathroom size space
My sentimental valuables stored in a box
Bird-bathing out of a bucket
That doubles as a wash bucket
This ain’t livin’
Child portion meals
Supplemented with “Add Hot Water”
Cooks in 5 minutes, instant soups
Refried beans and rice
Preserved meats and seafood
This ain’t livin’
Doin’ time
Conscious of every tick-and-tick
Knowing society is advancing without me
While I measure hours, to balance my weeks
Every year a day closer to the penalty
As I concentrate on keeping time on my flush and shower minutes
When you are surviving, you ain’t livin’.
This ain’t livin’
Attacks on my mental
Assaults on my human sensibilities
As I stride through filth
Stripped of my dignity and decency
With calculated attempts to sever my communication beyond the wall.
This ain’t livin’
The never ending dysfunction
Of disorganised noise
The stench of bowl movements
Surrounded by a cesspool of immature talk
And enthusiastic sex play
Amongst self-proclaimed heterosexuals
This ain’t livin’
Strip down
Run your fingers over your gums
Behind your ears
Lift your testicles
Turn around, lift your right foot, now your left
Squat and cough
Get dressed
This ain’t livin’
Having my movements shadowed
By guards with guns.
DANGER
No warning shots fired on this yard
And the threat of lethal injection
I Long For…
Written thoughts by Ojore Dhoruba
I long for someone to care
I long for the words we will share
Just the comfort of knowing you’re there
I long for the intimate thoughts
That find the heat, then gets lost
I long for the caress of fingertips
The lingering sweet kiss
The joy of knowing you trigger my bliss
Oh, how I long for this!
But is it realistic?
I long for the opposite to my hardness
I long for what God bless
I long for you to bring out my best
I long for the compassion,
another human can invest.
I long for the burden of Freedom
I long for that day to come
I long for that voice to say I’m the one
Then the excitement of We’ve Won!
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| Crandell Ojore Mckinnon P32800 San Quentin State Prison San Quentin, CA 94974 |
Crandell Ojore Mckinnon was wrongly convicted in January 1999 for two separate homicides and received the Death Penalty.
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