Death Watch Journal for Kevin Varga – DAY 61

Yet another milestone today. One month until the day Texas wants to kill me. Sixty-one days of journal entries. When I started this journal I was full of optimism and hope for gaining a stay of execution, but as the days slipped away I lost that hope to despair. Now as I sit here all I can think is that I will be dead in a month. I have placed all my hopes of a stay onto to a motion that I am having to file PRO-SE (which means without a lawyer). What shall I do though if the courts deny my motion? I will have no other opportunity to gain a stay if this one is denied. It is difficult placing all ones hopes and dreams in a single source, but what other choice do I really have? I do hope that Governor Perry will commute my sentence to life as opposed to death but he has only done so once and I am short on optimism there. I do know that many, many people have been writing in for me to have my sentence reduced and I do hope that it works, it is just that as a person sits here and faces death in a month, hope is all you have truly. I close for now.