Grow!
By Will Speer
I have had a few situations that put me in a place I did not want to be in. Having to accept another’s need being greater than mine. But what made it harder was it was their ( issue or junk ) that caused the mess to begin with.
I do hope things are working out for the best with you.
Life is full of let downs and other people making choices that affect our lives both good and bad, it’s the bad that make it the hardest. As if we don’t have enough trouble on our own. In here sometimes one of the guys will say something that is playful but its trouble and my responds is “I have enough trouble of my own I don’t need anyone to add to it.”
Here’s something I’d like to share on troubling situation’s a PERSPECTIVE if you will, they are like puzzles!
See most of the time we just focus on the “thing” not what is God doing here?
How or what can I learn from this, is what we SHOULD be looking for.
It helps US grow. To work through a puzzle or situation as we LEAN on God through it, will change our attitude and give us peace.
The most important thing is, what is most important to God!
Are we in His will? Are we seeking His face?
Keep Him first and you will always be right where you are supposed to be!
Yes so much easier said than done,
but if we keep seeking it and dying to self daily by denying OUR emotions and selfish desires that try to rule our lives then we can start walking in His will and growing as He teaches, and corrects us through the trying times.
Yes you will fail, but get back up, fail again then get back up! This is how we get stronger.
Again its not easy but I’m 5 years in and WOW! The growth, strength, and changes that God has done in my life just, Humbles and Amazes me.
God reached down to the bottom of the barrel when He picked me. Its was up to me to surrender and submit.
Because of that I am changing, growing, learning, TRUSTING, and leaning on Him.
I encourage you to do the same. That way we can do it together. I am here for you and the things I can’t do trust in God He will help you through it.
He may not fix it or take it away but He will see you through it!
So what puzzle or puzzlessss =) does God have you working through right now? ? ?
Its not easy but it is sooo worth it! Be blessed and know you are loved dearly!
Happy New Year!
By Will Speer
Here on A pod the new year came and went without a sound.
That’s probably the first time its ever happened, last years was not all that but people still sounded off a little!
This year its different.
We are older and we are in a faith based section.
To me the moment of 12:00 o’ clock was not that big of a deal.
The fact that it is a new year is a huge deal!
Its a day to give thanks and Praise to God for those of us that want to honor God.
Its a day to remember all He’s done for us the year before, and the years before that.
I’d like to share a story.
This is a personal story about my beard.
I’ve been growing this beard since Oct. 26th of 2023
I just measured it the longest hairs are 16″ long.
I had never grown a beard before so when I got the stay I said I’m going to grow it until they make me cut it.
As time went on I began to think how long it was getting and how much work and hassle it was becoming.
I would pull up the covers to read a book in bed and beard all in my face, or I’m in the shower and the shampoo cap gets hair in it so when I twist the cap back on now my shampoo bottles hanging from my beard.
I mean its one thing to have long hair in the back but its a whole different ball game in the front.
I like to keep it tied up, easier to mange that way.
Now over time I knew I was not going to cut it.
I would not put a blade to it unless I had too.
See my beard has become a reminder.
Like in the old testament when God would tell the Israelites to build a memorial.
Well my beard has become a memorial to me.
Its a reminder of all the things God has done for me.
It became clear to me about four months ago I was in another sections day room telling them about my life and the changes that God has done in it.
When I was asked about my beard and that’s when I realised what it has become to me.
What do you have that’s a reminder of What God has done in your life?
Gratitude
By Will Speer
9am June 6th I’m waking up =)
Yes I’m being lazy smile! I’m waking up with gratitude. Gratitude for the day, my life, the people in my life, commissary that I would not make if it was not for those that cared for me. Putting things in proper perspective really helps me stay at peace and in a heart of gratitude.
I was at a minister visit the other day and was asked what am I most grateful for? I told him to be alive.
The living God has called me and chosen me for His purpose and plans, that’s why I’m still here.
I know I do not deserve to be here, I know the wretched and pathetic man that I am.
Its one thing to be thankful, but I’m learning what it really means to be grateful.
To walk in it and live in it.
Through the good, bad and even the ugly.
There’s even more to it, I see and feel the joy in the hard times more so than in the good times. Its crazy right!
So much has been taught to me because of WHERE I am at.
Being here on Texas Death Row has taught me so much and I am sooo thankful and grateful to God for the opportunity to be here.
It’s only here that I could see and come to understand these truths. I truly hate the circumstances that lead me to be here, living in my selfishness and the life style but I could never get what God is teaching me without being here.
I now ask you where are you?
What are you most grateful for?
What is holding you back from being grateful, when you are faced with a bad day, dark situation, or just something ugly?
What about a cold or something worse?
Seek gratefulness in ALL THINGS and you will see that your life will change! God Bless much love and stay safe. =) Will =)
Kind of Love
By Will Speer
Do flowers love?
What about grass or trees?
Do they love?
What kind of love do they give?
Maybe some scientist or gardener knows.
But what I do know is that they are beautiful.
Beauty is a kind of love.
A love that warms the heart.
A love that gives peace to the eyes.
A love that’s comfort to the soul.
A love that’s strength to the mind.
I remember laying in the deep grass,
feeling the cool blades tickle my Arms and neck.
That is love.
Comfort in the shadow of the tree.
The thick trunk with bark running up its limbs and reaching out to the lush green leaves as they sway in the wind.
There sits a bird so beautiful and proud.
A dove soft and innocent full of love as its mate lands they cuddle, touching beaks, rubbing heads, making a cooing sound.
The sun burst through the leaves lighting them as they face each other .
Seeing a heart.
You smile, in precious moments like this.
You know love.
Because beauty is a kind of love.
If I Could Be
By Will Speer
Dedicated to Angie
If I could be anything
or anywhere
I’d be the wind
I could blow my kisses at you every day
so I could twirl my arms around you.
And I could run my fingers through your hair.
I would bring the rain for you
or make the sun shine for you
if I could be the wind
There’d always be a lovely smell in the air
nothing foul could stay there.
It would be cool when you needed it
and warm as you like
because I’d bring the heat from the fires of passion
and as for where I’d be
always around the one who is
the love for me.
Only if I could be.
My Own Mind
By Will Speer
My own mind betrays me
I sleep when I want to be awake,
the drive is gone.
The vigor of life has withered.
I was in a bubble floating through the day,
now I can’t find the energy to make my way.
I can not say I’m sad,
but I’m sure not glad.
For the past has numbed me,
or does my own mind betray me.
Broken and shattered I once was
my heart merely tumbles like a,house of cards
to see the pieces I once was
broken and shattered.
Here I lay there I lay,
my joy and happiness spilled every which way.
Yet I hold onto my love.
For in love I hope
or does my own mind betray me.
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