Cast the First Stone
By Diego Ayala
Thinking of the past, tears raining from my face
How much must I suffer until I’m not a disgrace
No matter how many times I try and I try
You all still think that I deserve to just die.
Prayed many times to the man up above
Clearly my please were not good enough.
Trying to escape the grip of my youth,
By telling you all my life’s ugly truths.
I kept people far away from my heart
Scared that they’ll see me falling apart.
The darkness in other’s shaped my whole life,
The judge sentenced me to do twenty five.
Years in my cell to relive my whole past,
Consumed by depression, I hope they go fast.
Society asks what made the “monster” you see
The answer is easy, traumas made me.
If you’re really perfect cast the first stone
If not, then please just leave me alone.
Dropping the masks that made me feel strong
I’m sharing my pain by writing this song.
Waiting for Goodbye
By Diego Ayala
waiting for the day that you hate me
when you find out why I wasn’t there
the day that you stop being my baby
my life will become too much to bear
no more “I love you daddy!”
no more smiles directed at me
only looking at your pictures sadly
heartbroken for all of eternity
so when you visit I memorize your face
and record your voice in my mind
I try to come up with different ways
to make you love me before I’m left behind
I think of the milestones I’ve already missed
and all the years that have been wasted
looking at all your pictures that I’ve kissed
unable to count the tears that I’ve tasted
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